they say... "are u SERIOUS?"

I havent chose to post anything personal in months when i realized certain people were spying on my blog(fuck em its my life and any outsider who reads this and feels a certain way, live with it but dont ever, ever, ever bring any of my blog postings up)... but in not doing so ive been the one suffering because serious things have been on my mind and heart the past few months... this is my oath to myself and my readers (who respond)... i will express myself because its therapeutic and necessary for me to get these things off my chest...

starting with this... because of my most recent situation a certain song has been in my head like fuckin crazy... and the oddest part is im really not all that into R&B music but i had heard this song 1 time when EB posted it... and it jus came outta nowhere and i feel like it fits how i feel... corny as fuck i know BUT... it... is... what it... fuckin'... IS!!!

Jasmine Sullivan- Lions, Tigers, and Bears



chorus:
I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears/
(No I'm not)...
But I'm scared of... loving you/
I'm not scared to perform at a sold out affair/
(That's right)...
But I'm scared of loving you/
Am I the only one who thinks it's an impossible task/
Why it don't last? Is that too much to ask?/
Why do we love, love?..... when love seems to hate us?/

2nd verse:
Most circumstances I know my fate/
But in this love thang, I don't get the game/
Why does it feel like those who give in/
They only wind up losing a friend/

Just cause I love you and you love me/
It doesn't mean that we'll ever be/
Fly cross the ocean, sing for the queen/
But the most frightening thing is you and me/
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This part stands out because im finally coming to grips with the harsh reality that i do have a COMMITMENT ISSUE/PROBLEM... i know what i want but i continuously run away from it because im not ready to let down my guard completely, and be with one person EVEN when they treat me how i want to be treated and/or love me how i want to be loved. I have no clue what this stems from or why it is.

Its frustrating and scary to know im 26 and i cant carry out a monogamous relationship, and the last time was the final straw which proved to me that ITS ME thats the problem. In these situations i end up losing friends i care about because i go to that level and in the end i cant/dont commit.

if ur reading this u prolly think its not big a deal and every1 goes thru some type of trouble with the heart when making choices and decisions BUT this shit is soooo hard at this point and i dont know what to do.

*DAMN THIS IS HARD*



*i guess i'll go to sleep now, since the sun is up *shakin' head*

they say... "Pass it on!"

I was tagged by the sexy Ms. EB...


"List seven songs that you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring summer. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to."

My 7 songs are as follows:

1... Hezekiah- I See Yaw (feat. Jaguar Wright)... i listen to this song everyday, its so REAL!

2... Blu & Exile- No Greater Love... this song describes a situation i was goin thru in such detail, dope lyrics too

3... EMC- Say Now... just a tight song!

4... Tupac- Against All Odds... this is hands down my fav. song of all time, and i had to listen to it alot this weekend, i was pissed

5... Trey Songz- Last Time... cant front this song is the shit!

6... Jaheim-I've Changer (feat. Keyshia Cole)... helllllla tight!

(There is a tie) for 7...

- Duchess S.- "Stay"... this is how u be feelin sometimes!

- Duchess S.- "Here We Go Again"... this is sooooo real!

NOTE: Duchess S. is a new artist that i know personally... check the songs i mentioned out on her MySpace page... CLICK HERE


IM TAGGING.......

- Ms. Puddin
- Smitty's Soliloquy
- Muze
- Cap City
- The Flyyest
- Karrie B.
- Still Poca

they say... "AIN'T that some SHIT?"

hey hey hey people... just here to post some randomness today... some o this may have already been covered but this i post is long over due... its bee some crazy, ignant, and wierd shit goin on these past few months... CHECK IT OUT!...
(these are in no particular order just)


1st off... when did this happen?

am i really that far outta the loop... not that i could give a damn with a small side of a f*ck but did yall even know they were dating?... stop lyin No yall didnt... i never seen it on POCA'S blog so i wasnt expectin it... thats all im sayin! NEXXXXXXT...

I cant believe it yall... is goin to jail... wait i mean.....
... yea... him... dude from "White Men Cant Jump"... Wesley they finally caught yo black ass... shiiiiit if i had to pay $500 to government for some f*ckin taxes... yo ni**a ass is payin too... orrrrr u can simply go to jail for 3 years... i keep tellin yall these white folks aint playin wit they money... they are pimps... and they will smack a hoe! (and yes you/me/we are the hoes)... NEXXXXXXT...

ohhhhh snap sonnnn (in my fake NY voice)... yall seen the IRON MAN movie yet?...

not much to say... hellllla tight... and i like the fact that the character of Tony Starks/Iron Man (Robert Downey Jr.) was a straight arrogant asshole...lol!... NEXXXXXXT...

"Its party time, Ohhhhhh its party time"... how many of yall remember this rapper named Tracy Lee... he had that 1 song "The Theme (its a party)"... okay u prolly dont... thank God for YouTube...


"and evrywhere that my crew go/
and every hoe that my crew know/
and every show that my crew blow/
u know we get down"

i was watchin an old ass episode of New York Undercover and it came on and i was like that shit used to be tight... what happened to dude *shruggs shoulders*... NEXXXXXXT...

okay while we're on music... gotta point out my flavor the month a few months ago... seen her on TV and was thinking perverted things... u know i be on my BROWNSKIN LADIES...
... i was feelin her!...
then i was highly disappointed when i went lookin for pics... *shaked head*... *sigh*... i'll just say this video does her justice and i'll keep that mental pic of her......... oh and did yall see Whitney actin like she had a lil sense... Ray J is layin pipe and stoppin crack habits, hmmm thats at least a point for man of the year... right... NEXXXXXXT...

hey... got a question for yall... WHO'S BEEN KEEPING THEIR NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS?... dont lie to me... i know yall fell off... i ask cuz i strayed away from mines for a few weeks but im back on... get on it my fellow bloggies!... ... NEXXXXXXT...

Hahahahaha... i just watched this shit again and was die'in laffin... this commercial cracks me the f*ck up...

hahahahahahahahaa!... NEXXXXXXT...

okay... lets get to some personal shit... im not sure what other states or areas have a NATION'S hamburger spot...

(this is the one in downtown OAKLAND)
BUT... they have their own recipe for Strawberry Cheesecake... that shit is hellllllla good...

(sorry the pic is so small)
i cant even describe how good it is... but while trying to... i came up with this nick name for it........................ PU$$Y ON A FORK... f*ck what you talkin' bout... it's just about that damn good!... i'll post a personal pic of it next time i go!... NEXXXXXXT...

aiiiight... my friend got me listenin' to this radio show called
MOVIN 99.7- LOVE TRAP...

(click the link)
this is radio show is dedicated to catchin' people cheating and puttin em' on blast... via the radio... its helllla funny!... listen to a few of em... NEXXXXXXT...

and lastly i wanna point out a few things ive noticed... is it me or do these people not look too much alike?...



ICE T..... & .....YUNG BERG


ANTHONY ANDERSON..... & .....CAIN LOPEZ(comedian)... it was hard to find pics


TIK (from flavor of love)..... & .....WEBSTER (emmanuel lewis)



LIL WAYNE..... & .....KHIA

side bar... while lookin for pics of khia i ran across this shit... had me rollin... look @ k-Ci from Jodeci... CONCRETE LOOP... its old but its worth a laff!


HAHAHAHAHAHA... IT WAS FUN PEOPLE but im out!... see ya sooner than later!

they say... "its from the SOUL"

jus came across this and was soooo feelin' the vibe... sometimes i wish a lived in the 70's!!!



he sounds good and he layin down half the damn time... *shakes head*

R.I.P. MG!

they say... "it's MUSIC to my EARS"

at work 2day im listenin' to my Itunes (as usual) and i wasnt feelin my normal hip-hop playlists so i decided to bumop some ISLEY BROTHERS... and towards the end of the album 1 of my favorite songs came on...

ISLEY BROTHERS- AT YOUR BEST YOU ARE LOVED



and then i started thinkin i love the song but honestly my favorite rendition of it is by AALIYAH...

AALIYA- AT YOUR BEST YOU ARE LOVED



damn her voice is BEAUTIFUL!!!

they say... "i DONT get it!"

so if any of u seen the new Kanye "flashing lights" video (which i posted last week)...




u prolly' like what the hell is goin on... well here is an explanation from... not saying its correct but it fits...

click here

they say... "what all that damn NOISE?"

some1 brought it to my attention that the music in my blog drowns out audio and video on my page... so adjustments have been made...

now when u hit the blog i made the music visible so u can turn the shit off as u wish... anything for the ppl.

G-SWEET SIGNIN' OUT!

they say... "WHAT the HELL is he BABBLING about"

hmmmm... its FRIDAY and im in a good mood and feelin a bit random as i usually do about this time during the week... so here we go...


QUESTION:
i know some of yall have mommas or yall mommas have friends wit those super long ass nails

its a bit inappropriate (no it aint) but ive always wondered HOW THE HELL DO THEY WIPE THEY ASS?... which also leads me to think that their nails have to be hella nasty seeing as tho... nevermind... just HOW?


QUESTION:
the other night while out to dinner, my date asked me a question that i never thought about... it kinda blew my mind... next time ur @ a restaurant, pick up a fork or spoon and just ask urself... HOW MANY MOUTHS HAVE BEEN ON THIS SPOON/FORK???... hmmm... something to think about huh!... makes u wanna take yo own shit to the restaurant with you...lmao!


QUESTION:
plain and simply... WHY HASNT R. KELLY WENT TO JAIL YET?... i mean i like thwe dudes music BUT he just really sang his way out of a court case.


QUESTION:
if im an american and my decendants are from africa thus giving me the politically correct title of AFRICAN-AMERICAN... thennnnnn... WHAT ARE BLACK PEOPLE FROM EUROPE WITH AFRICAN DECENDANTS CALLED??? AFRICAN-EUROPEANS?... i mean i know their not but why arent they?


FACT:
its impossible to explain color to some1 who was born blind. (got into a discussion about this not too long ago)

QUESTION:
Why dont i post as much as i use to?

QUESTION:
Where in the world is Carmen San Diego?... hahaha...lmao!



i encourage u to add to the list, u might just get and answer, or mybe u just want to make a statement.

they say... "these are the TIMES!"

I finally got my ass out to a club this weekend... i been slippin on havin a social life... but this weeken i had HELLA FUN!, as usual... and u know ya boy was fly!... i thought i would see this character while i was out:


hahahaha!... but... no luck this weekend... PUDDIN. was tranna' act like she had a life and stayed home!
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SATURDAY...

my cuzin Dana turned 23...

and she demanded that i have my black ass at there... i swear i love this woman... she reminds me alot of myself in many ways... plus im partial to her over my other cousins because im the god father of her baby...

i aint been out in a minute... so i had to get FLY... got that good haircut cuz it was lookin ruff (which i found out some women like that shit, but it aint fa' me)... then i got that good manicure, got some fly shit out the closet i was feelin brand new!

anyway she wanted everybody to meet her @ this lounge in Oakland called the AIR LOUNGE... i love this place cuz of the atmosphere, the crowd, and the set-up is fly!... CLICK HERE FOR PICS

there are usually for the most part attractive women with somethin goin for them selves (not all of em, but more than a few ive met) and nobody really be on no bullshit tranna' fight or do too much. i know 1 of the female bartenders there so she hooked me and my boys up with the first round of drinks... we got there @ around 11:00 (a lil early) seeing as tho we beat the damn bday girl there (damn late ass black ppl.)... i seen a few ppl. i knew and chopped it up and got up to speed with them... one of the Smitty's ex-girlfriends was in there be hellllla annoying and obnoxious coming "THIS CLOSE" to gettin her ass whopped so many chicks in there. i mostly shot the shit wit my cuzin and flirted with my female friend that was there...

i ended up gettin hella drunk went to Smitty's house and crashed... only to wake up kinda early so i could be @ work on sunday from 10 til 7...
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SUNDAY...

Now sunday was the shit... we got this spot in san jo called "THE AGENDA"... and on any 3day weekend the shit cracks and all the local ppl. and hella other ppl. from the bay are there... as soon as i got out the car to go get in line i had to ask the fellas... is every woman thick now days... i swear i was barely out the car and group of about 4 girls were walkin down the street lookin like ponies about the ass region...

and that promised a great night ahead!...

we get in and of course we stay unique and fly... hit the bar with the intent to get FUCKED UP!... patron shots...


& long islands(thats what i had i dont know bout them)...


an hour into it im feelin my shit havin a good time... flirtin wit all my flings and sayin wussup to ni**as i aint seen in few months cuz i been anti-social when it hits me... ive been negleting my self of what every human needs... contact with other humans (preferably women) and alcohol... lmao!

it felt good to get out of my rut... i needed a haircut baaaad... i was lookin like rick ross about the chin...




and guess what i was supposed to go to work monday but i woke up late and it was raining so i started thinkin bout what SMITTY was sayin... "MAAAAN FUCK THEM CRACKAS I AINT GOIN TO WORK" (he didnt really say that but i know thats what he meant when he said whatever he said about not working on MLK DAY!)

in conclusion i need to set aside time to go out... it is necessary!
(how else would i have an excuse to do shit like this):

they say... "music soothes the soul"

Last night I fell in love... AGAIN!...

I fell in love, and a big reason why was because this time reminded me of the very 1st time I fell in love... although I mainly used 2 senses to capture the essence of this feeling... it was long waited and much needed... and perfect timing!

I went to a lounge last night where they have local artists... usually a few singers... possibly a rapper or two... maybe some groups... but last night... I was mesmerized...

The 1st performance was an Oakland singer by the name "Brianna" aka "Bri"... nice lil petite cutie with a nice voice... reminded me of a Kiesha Cole type of singer... the 2nd performer was also a singer but a lot more soulful, to put it in perspective she sang a Jill Scott song... and did a damn good job if I might add... they both had etremely short sets... so I was like damn they must not have many performances 2night...

At this point I was gonna go across the street to a club and do what I do... 2 of my boys from the east bay were hella like lets go over there... so when I was about 2 consider... I notice there is a band setting up... so enjoying live music like I do... I say "I wanna watch a lil bit of this to see what's up with this band"...

After about 20 minuts of setting up... this little ass stage has a DRUMMER, a KEYBOARDIST with 2 keyboards, a GUITARIST(wierd lookin dude...hahaha), a PERCUSSIONIST with the bongos and some maraca style instruments, a BASS PLAYER with an upright standing bass(one of my favorite sounds), and there's another keyboard set-up in front of everything... so I'm highly interested because the guys setting up their equipment jus give me the perception there's gonna be some HIP-HOP type of stuff goin on...

And it starts... an odd looking light skin dude with a clean ass purple and silver hoody walks on the stage as the bass player is playing what sounds like a classical music riff... and it speeds up as he plays it then the guitarist joins in and then to add to the experience I notice a SAXAPHONIST and TRUMPET PLAYER as they added their spark to this escalating music... then the guy in the purple hoody sits down and starts playing the shit out of his piano/keyboard... I mean he was beast on the keys and then the drummer joins in and this shit is rediculous... in my head I'm like "I aint goin no fuckin where til this shit is over"...

After they play this clean ass classical, hip hop infused routine the guy on the keyboard starts rapping... and the shit is right up my ally cuz its what I like to call REAL HIP-HOP!...

The performers name was KEV CHOICE(sorry didn't catch the bands name)... honestly (after careful evaluation) that was the best musical performance I've ever seen... the performer said him and his band had just come back off of tour with LAUREN HILL...

The performance continued with each song leading into the next... with solo's by some band members mixed in... they also mixed some classic west coast rap instrumentals into their set which was tight as hell...

I honestly don't think that lounge will see a much better performance than that... but then again I never would have thought I would see that one! (I LOVE HIP-HOP)

LAST NIGHT... I FELL BACK IN LOVE WITH MUSIC!!!!!