they say... "REVENGE is a sweet VICTORY"

2day my homegirl hit me on myspace with a video i found highly entertaining... yall prolly already see and/or heard about it... Shaq on stage at a night club freestyling, gettin @ Kobe!... seeing as tho' i dont like Kobe (respect his game but dont like him as.... u know what i cabt stand him as a person) i was crackin up @ the main lyricss of the freestyle which are, "KOBE!... TELL ME HOW MY ASS TASTE!"



LMAO... but then i felt it went to far when SPORTSCENTER got a hold of it...



this lil BS rap supposedly got Shaq dismissed as a sheriff... like he really needed the money... hahahaha... thats extra funny... check out that story HERE.

they say... "if only i had THOUGHT of it 1st"

What if i invented "pu**y-in-a-can"... no not really ...lol... but if it were possible how much money would i be lookin @ profit wise...jus think... hahahaha!



HOPE YALL HAD A GOOD WEEKEND!

they say... "is it TIME to go YET???"

FUCK! IM BORED!!!



i luv my job, but shit i so wanna get the hell outta here!... ITS FRIDAY!

well @ least this always entertains me:








YALL HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!

they say... "PAY it forward"

Yall ever seen that movie... its one of those inspirational humanitarian flicks with the message of, "passing on a random act of kindness"


So check this out... this morning I'm running late as usual... I'm talkin hella late... late like I live a lil over an hour (public
transportation) from my place of residence... I'm suppose to be at work at 10... I was a 2 blocks away from my house waitin for the bus at 9:15...

So I wait... and wait... and wait... I'm like WHAT THE FUCK... there no bus in sight... so I'm gettin pissed cuz shit like this makes me hella mad...

So as I'm standing there pissed off, I'm just looking @ cars pass by when I notice a clean ass silver mercedes benz... what I noticed first were the rims because cuz they were different, by now the car is @ a complete stand still so I observe the rest of it and see the dude drivin it... it was an indian guy about 35 on his cell phone with a blunt hangin out his mouth (I'm thinkin nah this ni**a aint smokin weed in broad daylight)... I laugh to myself and go back to waiting... when in no time @ all the indian dude had made a u-turn and pulled up next to me...


So I'm thinkin he needs directions... so I turn towards the car and he rolls the window down and says, "are you going to the BART station?" so I kinda gave em' raised eyebrow frown and that's when my thought process took over...

MY THOUGH PROCESS:

1st thought... wtf!?... is this ni**a gay and tranna pick up on me
[arrogant & homophobic]

2nd thought... I dunno about these indians folks, they be blowin shit up
[racist & prejudice]

3rd thought... if he say somethin outta pocket imma' beat his ass
[violent & ignorant]

4th thought... damn I do need to get to the BART station a.s.a.p. ...
and if somethin goes all bad I can always revert back to thought #3!...

So I reply, "what u say?"
And he asks again, "are you going to the BART station?"... u want a ride Just for confirmation I say, "are u goin that way?"
He says, "yea"...

So I grab my bag and get in... now I'm not gon' front I was still expectin some weird shit to happen... but that's just me... I'm a pessimist... expect the worse, hope for the best...

So now I'm in this clean ass benz with a fuckin stranger... she says, "I seen u waiting for the bus so I figured I'd give u a ride"...
so I say "thanks"...and proceed to make small talk... u know the usual, where do u work, u live around here, are u a murderer... shit like that!...

the guy goes on to say how he does this often when he's sees people waiting @ a bus stop... i was kinda shocked... but thats when it hit me there really are nice people left in the world even if the news tells u different.

he keeps talking and says, "people see my car and think, wow, but all this can be gone in a snap of a finger and i can be catching the bus, and i would like to think a person would give me a ride... people usually look at me like a weirdo when i offer but i understand... i use to catch the bus to but i dont have to any more but that doesnt mean i forgot what that situation is like"

i was like WOW!... thats deep... cuz i sure woulda smashed off... and then he asked me did i smoke (weed)... i was like "NAH" and he lit his blunt rolled his window down a proceeded to drive. he dropped me off asked my name and said have a coo' day and i did the same... he said his name was Karmit (*car-meet*... i guess thats how u spell it)... and that was that!...

AND THEN...

I get to my bus that takes to work and theres a black dude about my age there, he stood out cuz he was the only other black person around and he had on some clean ass air for 1's (even tho' im not a fan of those shoes)... while every1 is boarding the bus he digs in his wallet to get a few dolla out to pay and he is talking to the bus driver at the same time, i guess seeing how much it costs... this foo' drops a $100 and a $10 dollar bill on the ground as he steps on the bus...


NOW... yesterday he woulda been sooooo assed out it aint even funny... but since homie had gave the ride on some good samaritan shit... i tapped homeboy on the shoulder and was like, "ay u dropped somethin"... he was like OH SHIT!... thanx man!... DAMN! IM SLIPPIN! i was like yea that woulda been ugly!... he was like "ugly aint even the word"..

im an honest guy but that was hard to do... cuz it aint everyday that $100 bills just fall on the ground when nobody is lookin... but it aint everyday a stranger gives a young African-American male a ride in his benz when he's runnin late!

maybe this is how the world was originally designed!

they say..."these are just MY THOUGHTS"

2day i just seem to be in a random mood... its like all of a sudden i just got alot on my mind... alotta questions and few answers... things are just swimming around in my head...


the main thing i've been thinking about since this morning was the people i've decided to move on from and/or let go... was it for the best or was i being irrational?... i dunno but it seemed like the right thing to do @ the time... i'm just tired of dealing with some people and their ways... whether it be that their crazy, confusing, stupid, pointless, too emotional, etc etc etc...


another thing on my mind is my job... i swear i luv my job and in April my 6 months will be up and i will be eligible for a permanant position,, after talkin with my 2 supervisors they said my performance is above average and my accuracy is high, i just need to work on not being 5 to 10 minutes late on the regular (black ppl.) *shaking head*... i hope i can........... lemme rephrase that i will change that small problem cuz i really want to stay at this company...


any1 who knows me knows im this hard-core single person... all about being single but shit for the 1st time since my ex i think its gettin old... could be the weather... could be a phase... i dunno but i've been thinkin about having a girlfriend i just dont feel that way about any 1 person at the moment, every since my last "non-girlfriend" experience a while back i haven't seen that same type of interest spark yet... i dunno maybe i should just keep doin me like i originally planned... i guess i'll figure it out


my ex wanted talk to me in person so i agreed hadn't seen her in hella long... now when we were 2gether she found out she might not be able have kids, we NEVER tried but after they ran some test they told her she would have to go thru a procedure to get pregnant and that she should do it before she got too old (she's 28 now)... about a year and a half ago she asked me would i be father of her child when she went thru the procedure and i told her i couldn't do that cuz i didn't know what would be the situation with me and her and i don't plan on having kids until im married or @ least with the person i plan on marrying... so this talk she wanted me to have with her was basically what most call CLOSURE(even tho we've been apart for years)... the talk got real emotional as she cryed and told me she waited for me as long as she could (even tho' i told her to never wait for me)... so at that point she never told exactly what the convo was about except for closure... so like 2 weeks ago she lets me know she pregnant and asks for my blessings, i was happy for her, she always wanted to have a baby... since her i moved on with my life BUT i cant front that shit shocked me and made me think what if???... i remember sittin on the phone thinking to myself "LIFE IS SO NOT A GAME" and "time moves forward"... all-in-all... im happy for her and her situation but that shits been on my mind!


my living situation at the moment is hectic... im living with my best friends aunt and uncle (which is just like my aunt and uncle)... its hella coo' cuz it a reasonable commute to work vs. moving back to Oakland (40+ miles away from work)... the thing is that they have 7 kids that range from 6 to 18 and another live-in family member... i'm not use to not having my space... every since i moved outta my moms house i've had my own shit... so on a more personal level this is way outta my norm... its fun being over there but when im in my "G-SWEET MODE" i gotta go somewhere instead of jus bein home and chillin... i think i should be gone no later than mid February...


i've about had it up to my 4head with the fact that my mom and my brother don't get along... i don't know what to do its like a bad episode on a tv show... he's 18 and thinks he's grown so naturally my moms attitude is "if u grown do like grown ppl. do and get out"... and i cant fault her for that BUT f*ck man they need to get it 2gether... my brother moved to my grand mothers house and now my mother lives alone... her and her husband are on the rocks so he no longer lives there and with my brother gone it leaves me worried because she sickly so aat any moment i never know whats gonna happen... my family in general need to work on their family values...


lately i've been looking into investment so i can set up my finances so my money can work 4 me... i want to get a good African-American financial counselor, also i'm decided to re-vamp my business that i started 2 years ago "SWEET SPOT CLOTHING"... trust u'll hear more about this again soon...


i haven't been the same ol' me lately haven't had the desire to go out clubbin, i've voluntarily been workin long hours @ work, ive been jus kinda chillin out on the weekends, cant remember the last time i had a real date (wait it was like a month ago i think), not much really excites me anymore, WTF is goin on with me!?

(there's more but i'll keep that 2 myself)

WELL GOTTA GET BACK TO WORK... I'M HERE TIL' 11 2NIGHT (12 hr. day)... HOPEFULLY ALL THIS SHIT FALLS INTO PLACE!

they say... "hard WORK PAYS off"

WOW!... my job gave everybody X-mas cards 2day... i opened it and a $100 bill fell out... i mean we dont technically get bonuses... so im like HELL YEA!... I'll say it again... I LOVE MY JOB!



*[side bar]*... LMFAO!... one of my co-workers said, "wouldnt it be fucked up if they charged everybody $100 at the door to get into our mandatory X-mas party"... haaaaahahaha!

they say... "ART imitates LIFE"

okay! 1st let apologize for being the last mothaf*cka on the planet to see American Gangster...

See what had happened was... i wanted to see it in the theater, and me and a certain some1 said we'd see it 2gether (wont fall for that again...lol) but they seen it and i didnt want to go with some1 who seen it already... outside of that i gotta give it to the bootleggers of the world for having the movie a monthe b4 it came out in the theaters... so i had a hell of a time avoiding seein it at every fuckin bodies house... BUT none-the-less i paid my good money to go see it...


NOW... on to the question @ hand... am i the only 1 that watches movie of the nature and then for a split second want/think about doin some illegal shit!

i was lookin @ all the MONEY in the movie like lemme jus get a handful and id be happy...


if u've ever felt like this what movie were u watching, and what were u thinkin?

they say... "you can't have the GOOD, without the BAD!"

`well ive been havin' good days alot lately.. so i guess i was due... my day started goin bad as soon as the clock struck 12:00...

heres how it played out...

Ok... I'll give u a brief run down...

This started last night after mid night...
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12:15... I get in the house... and what do u know all of sudden im no longer sleepy


1:00... still up

2:00... still up

3:00... still up (tossin & turnin)

4:00... still up (tossin & turnin)... and then finally fell asleep (which is a bunch of BS cuz of all people, I can always fall asleep... i swear im slightly narcoleptic)

5:45... the worst cramp in my calf ive ever had in my life... oh god... it was 1 of those u cant even stop if u like grab it... it was pain full... I actually had 2 get up and put my foot on the kitchen floor to get it to stop (home remedy)... never had 1 like that before... my calf is still sore!

9:27... wake up (to hella kids who have no school makin hella noise and runnin around, NO their not mines... im staying w/ fam. far a few weeks)... mind u I have to be to work @ 10:00... I was supposed to wake up @ 7:30...

I was so late already I didn’t even rush... mike uncle said he'd take me to work... so im like coo... I wont be too late so I waited around 4 him... only to find out he has something he 4got he had 2 do... so he drops me off @ the bus @ 11:05... and guess what (yep u got it I missed the bus by 10 minutes)

11:25... 180 bus leaves to san jose

12:08... bus arrives... and of course the lightrail is pulling off as the bus is pulling up...

12:16... lightrail comes...

12:31... I arrive @ work, thinking "okay lemme get to work lunch is about to start"

12:34... get a phone to test... battery is dead... and it requires a special 1 of a kind (in the galaxy) charger that nobody can find... but my job is to locate it...


12:49... locate charger and get to work for 11 minutes until lunch time... sigh!

BUT ITS NOTHIN I'LL JUST MAKE IT UP DURING OVERTIME!... ;0)


Soooooooooooooooo... how was ur day???

they say... "Ur job is like ur 2nd home"

Lemme start by saying I LUV MY NEW JOB...

okay so like about a year ago, i seen a posting to be a video game tester... now honestly i didnt know what all it was about and didnt too much care...
VIDEO GAMES + GETTING PAID TO PLAY EM' = *KOOL-AID SMILE*...


So i applied and got no call back what so ever... not even an interview... so like about 3 months ago i see the posting agin but this time its thru a staffing agency... so i apply and meet the staffin agency people... and they say "WE'LL GIVE U A CALL"... after about 2 weeks i gave up on that and kept job searching... a full month went by when i got a call from an odd #... i answered and they told me i was chose for a position @ Namco... and im hella juiced...


I started October 1st... and granted its just been a lil' over a month, i cant say a single negative thing about my job!... i mean CMON' PEOPLE... I play video games!


My branch of the company ONLY deals with cell phone games... so if u've ever had... PAC-MAN, MS. PAC-MAN, SUPER PAC-MAN, GALAGA, POPEYE, ETC. on ur cell phone it came from us and it pretty much was tested by some1 in this room (i would imagine only on the westcoast, but im not 100% sure)


Before this job most of my jobs were security which i refuse to go back 2 if i have any say so in it... so i had 2 wear a uniform, be bothered with assholes, and answer to an asshole with authority... BUT........................

NOW... i wear what ever i want to work... except for sandals and shorts... and u can wear shorts on fridays if u wish to... i get paid more than my previous jobs... the have breakfast for us every friday... we get a free hour every friday to do whatever u want, u can either take a 2 hour lunch or get off an hour early... when they offer overtime they buy u dinner (applebees, red robin, pizza, etc)... AND PEOPLE PLEASE DONT FORGET... I PLAY VIDEO GAMES!

honestly i do have shit i have to do and i dont JUST play video games but i couldnt be happier when i wake up in the morning!...

PEEEEACE OUUTTTT!... or should i say...

they say "honesty is the best policy"

I'm on my way to a job interview as they type this... and I'm just thinking how interviews are BULLSHIT...

Going into it they expect you to lie... they don't really want an honest hard worker, they want a lying bullshitter...lmao

They get u into an office(interrogation style) to interview you and ask u questions like:

Q: Do you think its fare to be late every now and then?

LIE: "no not at all that's unacceptable and should never happen"

TRUTH: "hell yea it is, I think its a crime to be on time... you need to be well rested when u get to work if ur gonna perform at ur best and if that means being late, so be it!"

Q: If you seen a fellow employee doin something unethical such as stealing, do yoiu think you should report it to management?

LIE: "Yes, stealing is a crime no matter how insignificant it may be"

TRUTH: "Rule #1 where I'm from... STOP SNITCHIN' (lmao)... no I aint tellin on nobody.... ummmm unless them gettin fired means I get a raise or promotion"

I can go on but I'm almost to this place for the interview and u know they act like the planet will literally explode if u ur 2 minutes late!

So in conclusion if I ever have the opportunity to interview someone I'm gonna higher the person being real abot it...lmao!... tell you how it went later peeeeaaace!