they say... "get it OFF ya CHEST" (LATE)

*Things some ppl. in my personal life need to know (but I don't wanna be an asshole)...*

Let me start off by saying I'm not mad at any1 specific... nobody did shit... I'm just reflecting on some shit...

- 1 thing u can fuckin count on... ALWAYS!... is that I'll be ME!...
love it or leave it... at this point in my life I don't care which 1 u choose

- I have friends... the SMITTY's... theres nothin I won't do for them (pause/no homo)... their like brothers... so if u decide not to be my friend... sorry but it bothers me very little... Im not that excited about making new friends any way, I accept new associates but I don't go out looking for them

- I keep to myself... whatever I choose to not tell u is my business...
respect that and shut the fuck up!...

- yea I do think I'm too good for some shit... and I do show it @ times... that's me, I don't know how else to be

- Women enjoy my company just as I do theirs, what the hell u mad for...
get over it!

- I don't change... I may tighten or loosen up things about me but I never stray too far from being G-SWEET... I figure if people are attracted to me and/or accept me when they meet me its because there's something they see in me so why would I change???... shit u might not like the change, orrrrrr the change might not like you

- Insecure people are starting to get on my nerves... I'm not dealing with them anymore... nothing against u but I've noticed there's no helping or convincing these people... so I'll just stay away from them... if I meet a woman and she's insecure I'm walkin away... for real tho... that shit is played... life is too short to harp on the negative shit about URSELF of all people

- I hate when people change there character based on another person... I find that to be a weak-willed person... I feel like u should always be able to find urself within a situation no matter what... ur girlfriend/boyfriend, brother/sister, bestfriend, worse enemy... should not be the reason u change urself...
Now if ya married... hey u gotta do what u gotta do *shrugs shoulders*


PARTING WORDS:

I am the flyest ni**a walkin...
I am humbly-arrogant...
I dont care what u think...
I am too good for some shit...
Women love me...
Men envy me...
If I had nothing, I'd still have more to offer than most!


*back to my regular(LATE) scheduled blogging*

They say... "you ever FEEL like somebodys WATCHING you"

The 1st week of February the boss decided to run the office with a slightly different scheme... this required every1 to move to a different area... as soon as I got the mass e-mail I knew somethin about this wasn't gon' go in my favor... so they promoted a few ppl and split every1 up into small teams... my team is coo... I was only familiar with 1 person in my group prior to the move...

The day b4 the big move another mass e-mail went out with an actual seating chart... at that point I'm like are we in the fuckin 3rd grade...lol

Now... when I finally got my seat I was like wowwww... 4real... that's
how yall feel... now 1st off my old seat was dead smack in the middle of
the room... our office is set up like cubicles with no walls... just alotta ppl. in a room but everybody has a computer...

so i got a seat right in the line of sight of the supervisors so its ugly, my computer screen is visible to them but my back is turned to them... they can see me but i cant see them... this is what it looks like:



now 1 supervisor is coo'... but the other is a jerk!... so evertime i look over my shoulders i see him looking in my direction... as the chart shows he's the supervisor marked in the dark red... let the bright red lines be the l;ine of sight... lol... but its NOT funny!

so my lead comes over the other day and goes jus givin' u a heads up the he's (asshole sup.) is watchin u evertime i look over there... so i was like ok!... WOW!...c an we say WOW!

its coo tho... cant a brotha down tho!

they be like yall cant use the internet, but when they leave... i be on it again!

so this is whjat i have to say about it all...

they say... "PAY it forward"

Yall ever seen that movie... its one of those inspirational humanitarian flicks with the message of, "passing on a random act of kindness"


So check this out... this morning I'm running late as usual... I'm talkin hella late... late like I live a lil over an hour (public
transportation) from my place of residence... I'm suppose to be at work at 10... I was a 2 blocks away from my house waitin for the bus at 9:15...

So I wait... and wait... and wait... I'm like WHAT THE FUCK... there no bus in sight... so I'm gettin pissed cuz shit like this makes me hella mad...

So as I'm standing there pissed off, I'm just looking @ cars pass by when I notice a clean ass silver mercedes benz... what I noticed first were the rims because cuz they were different, by now the car is @ a complete stand still so I observe the rest of it and see the dude drivin it... it was an indian guy about 35 on his cell phone with a blunt hangin out his mouth (I'm thinkin nah this ni**a aint smokin weed in broad daylight)... I laugh to myself and go back to waiting... when in no time @ all the indian dude had made a u-turn and pulled up next to me...


So I'm thinkin he needs directions... so I turn towards the car and he rolls the window down and says, "are you going to the BART station?" so I kinda gave em' raised eyebrow frown and that's when my thought process took over...

MY THOUGH PROCESS:

1st thought... wtf!?... is this ni**a gay and tranna pick up on me
[arrogant & homophobic]

2nd thought... I dunno about these indians folks, they be blowin shit up
[racist & prejudice]

3rd thought... if he say somethin outta pocket imma' beat his ass
[violent & ignorant]

4th thought... damn I do need to get to the BART station a.s.a.p. ...
and if somethin goes all bad I can always revert back to thought #3!...

So I reply, "what u say?"
And he asks again, "are you going to the BART station?"... u want a ride Just for confirmation I say, "are u goin that way?"
He says, "yea"...

So I grab my bag and get in... now I'm not gon' front I was still expectin some weird shit to happen... but that's just me... I'm a pessimist... expect the worse, hope for the best...

So now I'm in this clean ass benz with a fuckin stranger... she says, "I seen u waiting for the bus so I figured I'd give u a ride"...
so I say "thanks"...and proceed to make small talk... u know the usual, where do u work, u live around here, are u a murderer... shit like that!...

the guy goes on to say how he does this often when he's sees people waiting @ a bus stop... i was kinda shocked... but thats when it hit me there really are nice people left in the world even if the news tells u different.

he keeps talking and says, "people see my car and think, wow, but all this can be gone in a snap of a finger and i can be catching the bus, and i would like to think a person would give me a ride... people usually look at me like a weirdo when i offer but i understand... i use to catch the bus to but i dont have to any more but that doesnt mean i forgot what that situation is like"

i was like WOW!... thats deep... cuz i sure woulda smashed off... and then he asked me did i smoke (weed)... i was like "NAH" and he lit his blunt rolled his window down a proceeded to drive. he dropped me off asked my name and said have a coo' day and i did the same... he said his name was Karmit (*car-meet*... i guess thats how u spell it)... and that was that!...

AND THEN...

I get to my bus that takes to work and theres a black dude about my age there, he stood out cuz he was the only other black person around and he had on some clean ass air for 1's (even tho' im not a fan of those shoes)... while every1 is boarding the bus he digs in his wallet to get a few dolla out to pay and he is talking to the bus driver at the same time, i guess seeing how much it costs... this foo' drops a $100 and a $10 dollar bill on the ground as he steps on the bus...


NOW... yesterday he woulda been sooooo assed out it aint even funny... but since homie had gave the ride on some good samaritan shit... i tapped homeboy on the shoulder and was like, "ay u dropped somethin"... he was like OH SHIT!... thanx man!... DAMN! IM SLIPPIN! i was like yea that woulda been ugly!... he was like "ugly aint even the word"..

im an honest guy but that was hard to do... cuz it aint everyday that $100 bills just fall on the ground when nobody is lookin... but it aint everyday a stranger gives a young African-American male a ride in his benz when he's runnin late!

maybe this is how the world was originally designed!

they say... if YOU wanna know somethin', then ASK!

And although that is so true... some shit should be left alone!... or should it???...

I went on a date yesterday night to see American Gangster... yess I know I'm hella late... yea yea yea!... see my previous post..... they say... "ART imitates LIFE"

Anywho b4 the movie, we're out eating and choppin it up about whatever... when this chick goes, "soooo what's ur fantasy"... now I dunno about u but I'm game for this conversation but wait a minute ma'... u don't even know me like that... but hey its 2007 and women go for what they want so "whatever" I answer and I ask the same question in return, I think she answered the way she did based on my answer...

[Side bar:] maybe its one of those, lemme ask him b4 he asks me typa things

The conversation goes on for another 10 minutes, we are no longer talking about the fantasy thing anymore when she busts out with, Do you have any GAY fantasies????????????........ hmmmmm... I'm lookin @ this chick cuz I'm thinkin, 'I seen her lips movin but I know she didn't just ask me that shit'


After I loudly exclaim, HELL NAW, WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THAT?... WHAT KINDA NI**AS YOU HANG AROUND?... she starts laughin' and im like, "Do you always asks guys that"... she says, "it was just a question"... so i ask her what if a guy (certainly NOT me) says, "yes"... and she says, "then I'll get up and leave"... so at this point im laughing... i kept bringin that wierd ass shit up all night tho!...

Afterwards when i thought about it I had to ask myself; i know she didnt look @ me and think i was a fun-boy cuz i dont play around like that NO SIRRRR!...

OR...

Is society that far gone that women have to ask shit like this because of these undercover fruit-cakes?... and shortly after i answered my own question with................ YES!!!, it is!...


this shit is sad!...