they say "honesty is the best policy"

I'm on my way to a job interview as they type this... and I'm just thinking how interviews are BULLSHIT...

Going into it they expect you to lie... they don't really want an honest hard worker, they want a lying bullshitter...lmao

They get u into an office(interrogation style) to interview you and ask u questions like:

Q: Do you think its fare to be late every now and then?

LIE: "no not at all that's unacceptable and should never happen"

TRUTH: "hell yea it is, I think its a crime to be on time... you need to be well rested when u get to work if ur gonna perform at ur best and if that means being late, so be it!"

Q: If you seen a fellow employee doin something unethical such as stealing, do yoiu think you should report it to management?

LIE: "Yes, stealing is a crime no matter how insignificant it may be"

TRUTH: "Rule #1 where I'm from... STOP SNITCHIN' (lmao)... no I aint tellin on nobody.... ummmm unless them gettin fired means I get a raise or promotion"

I can go on but I'm almost to this place for the interview and u know they act like the planet will literally explode if u ur 2 minutes late!

So in conclusion if I ever have the opportunity to interview someone I'm gonna higher the person being real abot it...lmao!... tell you how it went later peeeeaaace!

they say "know what ur getting into, before you get into it"...

ummmmm... yea so theres this chick that likes me (we'll just call her the "admirer")... she coo' to hang out wit as a "friend".... has great convo as a "friend"... and coo' to party with... as a "friend!"... but she doesnt exactly get the point she asked how i feel about messing with her on serious terms and im like No, Not at all (okay not in those words, im not a total dick)... but i did clearly say it wasnt coo'

She knows alot about the woman that im really feelin cuz shes asked and the shit is obvious... but yet she continues to get pissed and go on these "fuck g-sweet" missions... the thing is its coo' hangin out wit this person but i cant do it no more...

Soooo... i am now officially gonna act like this person doesnt exist... reason being all of the above annnnd the fact that she acted like i was invisible at the club last night... (i mean i dont mind cuz i dont need to be friends with this person but thats hella 3rd grade)

if i would have knew that this person liked me i dont think i would have ever tried to be coo' with her like that... but hey u live and u learn (so they say!...lol)




WELL THATS MY BLOG FOR THIS MORNING!... jus felt like writing... im bored as shit... if think of a good topic i'll be back 2day!

they say "a bad attitude will get you nowhere!"...

I think its time to revert to the old ME from about 2 years ago when I was super-single with no attachments and no interests...

This ME consists of many women, wild club nights, and no type of commitment what so ever...LMAO!...

Lately I've been tranna wait out a situation 2 see what was goin 2 happen but its getting nowhere and I'm @ the point where I'm like FUCK IT imma jus do the super-single thing again but part of me is like, "nah that's a bad idea"... and I agree but shit it might just be time to meet new people...

I guess if you can't HAVE what you WANT, just get what you like ;0)... until youfind somethin' else you like!

they say... "they know me"

2days inspiration comes from everybody(not really everybody) speakin' on me... not just in a negative connotation but just all around...

I'll start with a situation from a week or two ago where this chick that i have no affiliation with finds my who, what, and where abouts highly interesting... interesting enough to tell people what she thinks my relationship situations and/or status are, now i could care less about what she said AS LONG AS IT WAS TRUE... but cmon' u know that would be too much like right to just tell the honest to God truth... so this bootsy ass chick says that I tried to talk to her annnnd my play sister... now i'll admit im a flirt but she aint even close to cute or attractive TO ME... and i have never looked @ my play sister like that because she is hella coo' and her and my best friend have always liked each other, so it aint even been close to that level...

so a few days after that what do ya know i go to a club, i get in line, and guess whos standin in right in front of me?... hell yea its this messy ass chick... so i ignore her, jus act like she dont exist... she says "hi" to my boy and i jus act like i dont see her... okay so then we get in the club and shes takin pics of some of our homegirls and as we walk in our homegirls are like take some pics with us... so now thie chick decides 2 say "hi" and wave @ US... so i opt out to once more act like shes invisible... so she goes and snaps 2 pics and we proceed into the club... I HAD HELLA FUN BY THE WAY!

So the next day... word on the street(from HER mouth) is that a girl grabbed her and told her and said, "can you take a picture of me and my man?"... im like WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

now mind you... there were 4 people in the pic... me, my best friend, my homegirl from highschool, and her friend(that i met once b4 but couldnt even remember her name)... so for someone to make that dumb ass comment above would be stupid... but even worse... THE SHIT WAS NEVER SAID... i was standing right next to all 4 people when my homegirl EXACTLY said' "get a picture wit all of us"...

there is more but i dont want to even keep writing on this topic(right now)... so in conclusion:

I understand my life is probably more interesting than some, but if your gonna play private eye @ least say what you seen and heard and that way i'll at least respect u...



"YOU THINK YOU KNOW MW, BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA!"

they say... I "walk around like im a king or somethin'"

aiiight....... so one of my homegirls always says i am concieted... and when i asked her to explain and/or elaborate... she said aside from thinkin i looked hella good (if i dont think so, who will) I walk around like im a king or something...

my 1st thought (which is usually the one i let pass through because im sure it'll be some smart ass shit) was to say, "I AM A FUCKIN' KING... SO BOW DOWN"... but somethin told me that would be fucked up...LOL... but my real response was "if i didnt act the way i act people wouldnt know me for who i am"

I mean seriously... how am i supposed to act... i mean granted i dont walk around acting like im really a king(cmon' thats rediculous), but shit i DO have a sense of pride and ego... and as far as i see it thats where i get my swagger, style, and demeanor.

everyday i see so many people walkin around with little to no self-esteem... pointing out their flaws while ignoring their positive traits... so im like FUCK THAT... i got enough shit to be happy and hold my head up about, so if that means people will mistake that for me ACTING LIKE IM KING... so be it... im coo' wit that...LMAO!


POINT OF THE POST: let people think what they want(to a certain extent)... but if ur genuinely sincere jus be YOU!

they say "the GOOD die YOUNG"....... R.I.P. Chad Fraga

"Chad Fraga, 30, of Oakland was fatally shot at 11:41 p.m. Friday in the 9400 block of Plymouth Street."
-SFGate.com

"OAKLAND — A 30-year-old man was found shot to death late Friday night after his car crashed into a parked vehicle in East Oakland, police said.

Police found Chad R. Fraga, 30, of Oakland, at about 11:41 p.m. Friday after his 1992 Buick LeSabre crashed into a parked car in the 9400 block of Plymouth Street.

It was quickly determined he had been shot, and he was pronounced dead at the scene at 11:53 p.m.

Homicide Sgt. Todd Crutchfield said police found evidence indicating the man was shot in the 9200 block of Plymouth but was able to drive the few blocks before crashing.

He said police do not have a motive for the killing"

-insideBayArea.com

And so i find myself burying another brother that ive known all my life over violence... but this time its alot closer to home... Ive know Chad for 16 years... when i moved the 80's he was 1 of the 1st people i met... everybody knew Chad, we called em' "WHITE BOY" cuz he was the only white kid that grew up with us... but it didnt matter because he was one of us... he liked black girls like we did, he had the same struggles we did, he faced all the situations that we did. Honestly throughout the 80's almost everybody i knew was coo' wit Chad, they who he was, and knew that he kept to himself for the most part.

This shit fuckin bothers my soul because even though i no longer have this friend... i feel like the shit is in vein cuz people refuse to learn from situations like this!... this shit is a never spiral of violence thats sucking more than just the victims into it... but the families, children, and friends are also affected as well.

To WHITE BOY i want to say... we all loved you like a brother, and i swear i never thought the next time i seen you it would be my last, but you will be missed... them 89-00 boys shine 4ever!

maaaan, i dont even know what else to write..........................

they say... "timing is everything"

Lemme start by hypothetically asking........... is it so wrong to want to be in control of most things in your life???

Lately i been goin thru the motions with this dilemma, thats not quite a dilemma... its bothering the shit outta me because i hate not feelin like im in control of situations... and i definately lost control of this one. (or at least it feels like it)

My situation is ive been on my "i wanna be single hype" since my last relationship(of 5 years) and during that time and now i met somebody that I ended up feelin in every aspect... mentally, physically, sexually, and more... we met, we hit it off, and everything took its course but instead of jus committing when the time was right i chose to keep this person at a distance when they wanted (and deserved) to be let into my personal space that I try so hard to guard. Its been well over two years now and i finally want that person to occupy that space...

During this 2 year period this person has voiced the fact that they wanted more from me and I declined to open up and just accept what they have to offer because in my heart and mind the timing wasnt right for me...

... but guess what?... time has a funny way of working because NOW i want that person to occupy that space and the timing isnt right for them(at least thats what i think, and hope is the deal and nothing more)... so with that said i feel like i no longer have control over this but shit i dont even think that should be what i should be worrying about, but i guess thats jus me!

So lately ive been torn between the two thoughts of:

1. Shoud I just move on(even tho i dont want to) and keep this person as a friend if thats even possible. I honestly dont even know what this persons interest level is at this point cuz i can no longer read this person... but if i choose this option it doesnt even matter.

OR

2. Jus wait it out and until the time is right with this person, but this option can set me up for a dead end situation, but has the potential to work out how i'd like it to.

At this point in time I find myself trying to go out with some female acquaintences to fill the void for but it honestly jus bores me and sometimes i feel like its a waste of my time cuz I already know what i want.

All and all... im a firm believer in everything happens for a reason so i'll jus see what happens, cuz I guess i cant control everything!