they say... "EVERYTHING must come to an END"

Its been a VERY log time but I'm jus gonna get into this...

This week has been crazy, a lot has came to an end and I'm just walking away from it, Im in a mod that requires no one, so any1 who removes themselves from me has done just that. Don't even know why I'm even posting, just feeling a certain way and I have no one to talk to.

I feel like I've exhausted every possibility in some areas of my life, and today I realized that for all that its worth!

they say... "CHANGE is good"

Now on some keep it real... im a person who doesnt like change when i find something i like i get in my comfort zone and want it to stay that way so i know exactly whats goin on and what to expect. But all change isnt bad and some change is for the better...

Lately ive been in a big ass slump, lookin for a new apartment, looking for a new job, havent been to the gym in months, trying to handle situations of the heart, chasing day dreams, and still trying to be a positive black man. at times that being positive shit goes out the window and it seems so much more feasible to jus do some shady shit... BUT i try to be coo' about it!

anywho seein as tho' the election was tuesday i promised myself the night before that i would start fresh the night before:

- so i woke up early went for a one and a half mile run and did some calisthenics which i can say i havent done in hella long... came back ate breakfast
- sent my favorite girl a message ;0)
- showered, and got dressed while listening to some Kev Choice...
- i went to go VOTE
- i emailed my resume to 4 jobs
- then to take my grandmother to run her errands
- watched the election until the victor was announced
- went DOWNTOWN OAKLAND to Jack London Square where they had a block party for the election...



there was soooo many black people out there and no one was actin a foo' or trippin it was nothin but love in the air and everybody was just happy to be black... it was amazing!

i kept thinking, "wow! we actually have an African American President" it seems like all of a sudden anything was possible!

so i got back on my grind cuz i fell so far off its not even coo...

i decided to take my music more serious... ALFA-BETA

*click the pic*

and also decided to take steps forward with my logo & graphic design skills...



and the photography company me and my boy "kinda" started...



and a few other ventures that im not gonna get into... but u get the point, this whole thing has sparked something in me and im gonna roll with it.
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so i say...

THANX MR. PRESIDENT!

they say... "Where do you DRAW the LINE"

So tonight my store had 2 year anniversary party, and i had a good time and enjoyed the people there... BUT!!!...

My ex was there and she got bent outta shape about a situation in the club and decided she wanted to confront me about it, thats coo except i dont do the arguing in the club thing and refuse to let some1 raise their voice at me... well she sure as hell felt it was OK as i continually asked her to lower her tone. Above all it was EXTREMELY uncalled for to pull this stunt at this event seeing as tho' i have other affiliates and people from companies i work with there, quite frankly that shit doesnt look good at all.

I blame myself because i should have expected this BUT i figured i wouldnt ever have to as far as to say, "dont get loud with me in public," cuz i sure as hell dont play that shit!

the situation died down but it was embarrassing as fuck!... BUT please believe i will not be happening again...

So this leaves me wondering... "at what point do some people draw the damn line"... do they keep goin until the other person losses their cool or what?

well i jus wanted to vent!



*this is my 98th post... i got somethin special fa yall when i get to my 100th post*

they say... "BABIES are MAKING babies"

I'm at the hospital waitin for my brothers girlfriend to have this damn baby... im soooo ready to go... inconsiderate huh...lol... yea i know... but shit she got here @ 3pm yesterday...

my little brother and his girl are both 19 (wait, thats actually not that old now days is it) but they are both unprepared but they have good parent potential and the family is soooo backing them...


she ready to pop any minute now... the doctors said she's might have to have a 'C section' so i guess the baby's tranna chill inside there for a lil' while longer... butt shit im sleepy...

on the bright side im gonna be an uncle, yesssss i am legally able to harass the shit out of a kid and not feel bad, annnd i get to jus leave when he starts crying... its weird im the last person in the family to have a kid, and i aint in a rush either... but im finna... oh yea their havin' a boy!

they say... "I'm a FREAK!"

It's prolly true ... anyway during my trip to Diego last weekend while walking around their strip (the gas lamp district)... i decided to go in a sex store and take a gander cuz i havent been in one in years... so i look around he first thing i decide to pick up is a porn DVD, Big Booty of course ... so i eyeball that DVD for a minute then move on... i see some perverted stuff, some gaynesss.. and then i noticed something interesting...

A sex sling annnnd a doggy style strap... lemme save u the explanation...here are the pics... lmao...


annnnd...


These both could be very useful... what do u think?... i think imma get em'.

and i'll leave u wit these 2... lmao...

they say... "i RECOMMEND this"...

I have a new favorite show... these 2 crack me the fuck up... how many of u have seen the show "Man and Wife"



this show is based on SEX, relationships, SEX, commitment, SEX, marriage, annnnnd SEX, oh yea and etc.i n a discussion style set-up... My boy says they've been doin this for a long time but just recently got a show on MTV so i hit the site and its a lil better cuz its uncensored...

If ur familiar with Fat Man Scoop then you know he's half crazy so he rants and raves and shows definite signs of ADD, but none the less he speaks what alot of men think... CUT & DRY!... lmao...


His wife Shanda on the other hand is hands down his better half cuz she's super calm, understanding but smashes when she has to which is often cuz taht foo' is crazy...lmao!... she's sexy too!


here's an episode jus so u can see what i mean... *at 5:30 the topic had me dyin laffin!*


for more CLICK HERE...

they say... "i DUNNO about this 1 "

i seen this commercial over the weekend, and im not gon' front i cracked up (cuz im goofy...lol)... but then oi thought about how this can be taken waaaay outta context, and i think the creators shoulda thought this 1 out a lil more...



i\I took it for what it was... what do u think???

ps. i know smitty aint gone find this all that funny