"THEY SAY"... im complicated... I say "I'm me"...

they say... "EVERYTHING must come to an END"

2009-10-04T23:53:00.000-07:00

Its been a VERY log time but I'm jus gonna get into this...

This week has been crazy, a lot has came to an end and I'm just walking away from it, Im in a mod that requires no one, so any1 who removes themselves from me has done just that. Don't even know why I'm even posting, just feeling a certain way and I have no one to talk to.

I feel like I've exhausted every possibility in some areas of my life, and today I realized that for all that its worth!

they say... "CHANGE is good"

2008-11-04T19:10:00.000-08:00

Now on some keep it real... im a person who doesnt like change when i find something i like i get in my comfort zone and want it to stay that way so i know exactly whats goin on and what to expect. But all change isnt bad and some change is for the better...

Lately ive been in a big ass slump, lookin for a new apartment, looking for a new job, havent been to the gym in months, trying to handle situations of the heart, chasing day dreams, and still trying to be a positive black man. at times that being positive shit goes out the window and it seems so much more feasible to jus do some shady shit... BUT i try to be coo' about it!

anywho seein as tho' the election was tuesday i promised myself the night before that i would start fresh the night before:

- so i woke up early went for a one and a half mile run and did some calisthenics which i can say i havent done in hella long... came back ate breakfast
- sent my favorite girl a message ;0)
- showered, and got dressed while listening to some Kev Choice...
- i went to go VOTE
- i emailed my resume to 4 jobs
- then to take my grandmother to run her errands
- watched the election until the victor was announced
- went DOWNTOWN OAKLAND to Jack London Square where they had a block party for the election...

there was soooo many black people out there and no one was actin a foo' or trippin it was nothin but love in the air and everybody was just happy to be black... it was amazing!

i kept thinking, "wow! we actually have an African American President" it seems like all of a sudden anything was possible!

so i got back on my grind cuz i fell so far off its not even coo...

i decided to take my music more serious... ALFA-BETA

*click the pic*

and also decided to take steps forward with my logo & graphic design skills...

and the photography company me and my boy "kinda" started...

and a few other ventures that im not gonna get into... but u get the point, this whole thing has sparked something in me and im gonna roll with it.
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so i say...

THANX MR. PRESIDENT!

they say... "Where do you DRAW the LINE"

2008-10-19T05:32:00.000-07:00

So tonight my store had 2 year anniversary party, and i had a good time and enjoyed the people there... BUT!!!...

My ex was there and she got bent outta shape about a situation in the club and decided she wanted to confront me about it, thats coo except i dont do the arguing in the club thing and refuse to let some1 raise their voice at me... well she sure as hell felt it was OK as i continually asked her to lower her tone. Above all it was EXTREMELY uncalled for to pull this stunt at this event seeing as tho' i have other affiliates and people from companies i work with there, quite frankly that shit doesnt look good at all.

I blame myself because i should have expected this BUT i figured i wouldnt ever have to as far as to say, "dont get loud with me in public," cuz i sure as hell dont play that shit!

the situation died down but it was embarrassing as fuck!... BUT please believe i will not be happening again...

So this leaves me wondering... "at what point do some people draw the damn line"... do they keep goin until the other person losses their cool or what?

well i jus wanted to vent!

*this is my 98th post... i got somethin special fa yall when i get to my 100th post*

they say... "BABIES are MAKING babies"

2008-10-13T20:41:00.000-07:00

I'm at the hospital waitin for my brothers girlfriend to have this damn baby... im soooo ready to go... inconsiderate huh...lol... yea i know... but shit she got here @ 3pm yesterday...

my little brother and his girl are both 19 (wait, thats actually not that old now days is it) but they are both unprepared but they have good parent potential and the family is soooo backing them...

she ready to pop any minute now... the doctors said she's might have to have a 'C section' so i guess the baby's tranna chill inside there for a lil' while longer... butt shit im sleepy...

on the bright side im gonna be an uncle, yesssss i am legally able to harass the shit out of a kid and not feel bad, annnd i get to jus leave when he starts crying... its weird im the last person in the family to have a kid, and i aint in a rush either... but im finna... oh yea their havin' a boy!

they say... "I'm a FREAK!"

2008-10-09T13:29:00.000-07:00

It's prolly true ... anyway during my trip to Diego last weekend while walking around their strip (the gas lamp district)... i decided to go in a sex store and take a gander cuz i havent been in one in years... so i look around he first thing i decide to pick up is a porn DVD, Big Booty of course ... so i eyeball that DVD for a minute then move on... i see some perverted stuff, some gaynesss.. and then i noticed something interesting...

A sex sling annnnd a doggy style strap... lemme save u the explanation...here are the pics... lmao...

annnnd...

These both could be very useful... what do u think?... i think imma get em'.

and i'll leave u wit these 2... lmao...

they say... "i RECOMMEND this"...

2008-10-09T10:31:00.000-07:00

I have a new favorite show... these 2 crack me the fuck up... how many of u have seen the show "Man and Wife"

this show is based on SEX, relationships, SEX, commitment, SEX, marriage, annnnnd SEX, oh yea and etc.i n a discussion style set-up... My boy says they've been doin this for a long time but just recently got a show on MTV so i hit the site and its a lil better cuz its uncensored...

If ur familiar with Fat Man Scoop then you know he's half crazy so he rants and raves and shows definite signs of ADD, but none the less he speaks what alot of men think... CUT & DRY!... lmao...

His wife Shanda on the other hand is hands down his better half cuz she's super calm, understanding but smashes when she has to which is often cuz taht foo' is crazy...lmao!... she's sexy too!

here's an episode jus so u can see what i mean... *at 5:30 the topic had me dyin laffin!*

for more CLICK HERE...

they say... "i DUNNO about this 1 "

2008-10-06T23:23:00.000-07:00

i seen this commercial over the weekend, and im not gon' front i cracked up (cuz im goofy...lol)... but then oi thought about how this can be taken waaaay outta context, and i think the creators shoulda thought this 1 out a lil more...

i\I took it for what it was... what do u think???

ps. i know smitty aint gone find this all that funny

they say... "SLEEP is FORBIDDEN"

2008-10-04T04:24:00.000-07:00

This week i started a new way of doing things...

OKAY... im a big fan of "i wanna work for diddy" and 1 of his creeds is "SLEEP IS FORBIDDEN",

he believes that when every1 else is sleep you could be gettin "something" done that will get you ahead of ur competition...

so seeing as tho ive been in a slump lately and ive been very unproductive i felt that id try the 'sleep less do more' thing and thus far its been good, ive got so much shit done this week and when i do go to sleep i sleep hella good and im waking up early.

As much as i like sleep (lmao) im just trying something different to cure boredom with life.

what do u think???

they say... "i CAN'T be who YOU want me to BE!"...

2008-10-02T10:51:00.000-07:00

2day before i walked out my moms house she told me i need to work on my attitude... so i look her in the eyes and ask, "why do you say that?"... and she says, "you havent been urself lately, u walk around with an attitude, and its not the normal you"...

so my response is straight up how i feel, i say, "why do people expect me to act the same way every day no matter what my situation or circumstance is, i mean for the most part i TRY and stay positive but im onkly human, and its no fair"... at that point im getting pissed because this is coming from a woman who has had drastic mood swings all her life, and takes her attitude out on people who surround her (usually me and my brother)... now she has the nerve to come at me wit that.

so then she says that she doesnt feel like she can talk to me, she's scared to say stuff to me cuz i have an attitude, im like what the hell are u talkin about (i didnt say that tho, lol) you dont even be tranna' say shit to me and ur assuming...

now granted my attitude is niot of the normal G-Sweet BUT show me a person who is the exact same all the time no matter whats goin oin in their life...

jus felt like venting... and at this point peopl jus might start seeing a side of me that they really dont like... lets jus hope that aint the case.

they say... "i SEE why!"...

2008-09-30T12:15:00.000-07:00

At this point in time i can say i see why n*ggas be goin all bad and robbin' folks... i mean i aint gon' do it *side grin*... but at this point my financial situation is fucked up right now, i try to keep a level head about it BUT the fact that the economy is is bent over a table gettin the business right now doesnt promise that i'll find another job anytime soon.

Lately ive had these odd thought and dreams of me taking what i want and/or dont have i.e. .....
(get rich or die tryin)... lmao!...

What is the average person to do when the economy is how it is... i mean i could get a job at a fast food place *blinking blankly*.... but fuck that i do have standards (not to down any1 who does)... but i aint doin that shit.

anyway this is jus somethin that was on my mind to let all the stick-up-kids who read my blog know that I UNDERSTAND.................................. *thinking*... do stick-up-kids blog???... hahaha... i mean they would have an interesting ass blog

they say... "are u SERIOUS?"

2008-09-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

I havent chose to post anything personal in months when i realized certain people were spying on my blog(fuck em its my life and any outsider who reads this and feels a certain way, live with it but dont ever, ever, ever bring any of my blog postings up)... but in not doing so ive been the one suffering because serious things have been on my mind and heart the past few months... this is my oath to myself and my readers (who respond)... i will express myself because its therapeutic and necessary for me to get these things off my chest...

starting with this... because of my most recent situation a certain song has been in my head like fuckin crazy... and the oddest part is im really not all that into R&B music but i had heard this song 1 time when EB posted it... and it jus came outta nowhere and i feel like it fits how i feel... corny as fuck i know BUT... it... is... what it... fuckin'... IS!!!

Jasmine Sullivan- Lions, Tigers, and Bears

chorus:
I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears/
(No I'm not)...
But I'm scared of... loving you/
I'm not scared to perform at a sold out affair/
(That's right)...
But I'm scared of loving you/
Am I the only one who thinks it's an impossible task/
Why it don't last? Is that too much to ask?/
Why do we love, love?..... when love seems to hate us?/

2nd verse:
Most circumstances I know my fate/
But in this love thang, I don't get the game/
Why does it feel like those who give in/
They only wind up losing a friend/

Just cause I love you and you love me/
It doesn't mean that we'll ever be/
Fly cross the ocean, sing for the queen/
But the most frightening thing is you and me/
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This part stands out because im finally coming to grips with the harsh reality that i do have a COMMITMENT ISSUE/PROBLEM... i know what i want but i continuously run away from it because im not ready to let down my guard completely, and be with one person EVEN when they treat me how i want to be treated and/or love me how i want to be loved. I have no clue what this stems from or why it is.

Its frustrating and scary to know im 26 and i cant carry out a monogamous relationship, and the last time was the final straw which proved to me that ITS ME thats the problem. In these situations i end up losing friends i care about because i go to that level and in the end i cant/dont commit.

if ur reading this u prolly think its not big a deal and every1 goes thru some type of trouble with the heart when making choices and decisions BUT this shit is soooo hard at this point and i dont know what to do.

*DAMN THIS IS HARD*

*i guess i'll go to sleep now, since the sun is up *shakin' head*

they say... "it LOOKS like i stepped out of a TIME MACHINE"

2008-09-17T13:41:00.000-07:00

MNy aunt had a 70's part recently and me and a few friends and fam attended... it was a breath of fresh air, one of those times u wish u were actually alive in the 70's...

im hella last minute so i wasnt gonna dress then it hit me i could just got to my grandparents house and see what my grandfathers old clothes (R.I.P. PAPPY)... turned out to be a great fuckin idea... so here is the finish result...

damn lil d, u got a burt out ass perm bra... hahahaha!

IMO and after careful evaluation i look like a UPS worker, *lmfao*... then at second glance i look like anthony hamilton with that damn beard and that hat...

so when i get to the party i see Smitty wit his get up on and its hilarious cuz the fro-wig he has looks hella real...

dont he look like a militant brotha ready to start the revolution???... lmao!

so later on the night i tried it on... we took hella pics...

hmmmm... i think she likes it!

a 70's super star

i see u smitty, lmao... the guitarist

HAPPY BDAY AUNTY ROBIN...

contest winners!

pimpin pimpin!

even the babies were their in character

they say... "it's just MYSPACE"...

2008-09-16T11:01:00.000-07:00

Actually i feel like im the only 1 who thinks that... i have a page just like the other trillion people on this planet and the next BUT im starting to think people 4get that (in my opinion) myspace is not real "physical" life. Lately myspace has irritated me beyond my normal tolerance...

when i change my mood... i have to hear some shit about that, its a mood sometimes there not an exact reason for a mood or there are a number of things to add up to me feeling like that... none the less ITS A FUCKING MOOD, and more importantly ITS JUST FUCKING MYSPACE!!!... i wonder if i can take that off all together... i'll check it out...

next on the menu is something i dont really mind to a certain extent... and thats people who go on other people page just to see whats in their comments or to see what their picture comments say... are u serious!... u cant ever be that bored... BUT the icing on the cake is when they feel they can approach you via text,phone, or in person about what they read... get over it!...

the he say she say has gotta stop i thought u had to be over 14 or 15 to get on myspace anyway, okay so act like it...

right now i feel like erasing my shit but i know i'll regret that later... but it justr amazes me how so many people are so focused on this shit that let it affect how they feel, what they think, and who they are in their real life...

im guess im done venting... for now... and i have obviously just gave myspace more meaning (than it derserves) by even posting this but FUCK IT its how i feel!

ps. what would hapopen if when every1 went to log on 2morrow morning myspace no longer existed?... hmmmm... think about it!

and in light of it all... hahahahahahaha!

they say... "HE got GAME!"

2008-08-20T18:35:00.000-07:00

I'd vote for him jus based off of his jump shot... i like the fact that we can potentially have a president that can play a sport be sides golf, fuck old outta shape white men (sorry that came outta nowhere)

they say... "thats F'd UP!"

2008-07-17T17:07:00.000-07:00

my homegirl posted this on myspace and it had me crackin up!...

my favorites are "LAZY" & "INEVITABILITY"... hahahahahaha!

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND YALL!

they say... "I'm a BIG KID!"

2008-07-10T15:11:00.000-07:00

When it comes to this topic im such an 80'S BABY... i swear!... i luv NINTENDO and everything about it.

Sooooo.... 2day i was on the net and i seen this...

MAAAAAAN!... I SWEAR I WANT 1!!!... im about to look and see if i can find 1 on Ebay!...

I'm such a Nintendo kid... i collect Nintendo stuff and i seen a few things i wanna add to the collection...

like the NIntendo controller i pod shuffle...

and the Nintendo iPhone... helllla tight!...

orrr the Nintendo belt...

oh snap!... Nintendo Chucks...

or how about the Super Nintendo Naked White Chick...

BUT ummmmmmmmm... this is some Nintendo shit i can do without! *shakin' head*... hahahahaha!... lmao!...

Anyway... who remembers this shit... wasnt this game the shit!...

they say... "what'll they THINK of NEXT?"

2008-07-09T13:30:00.000-07:00

Soooo... i was talkin to my homegirl yesterday... she recently crossed as a DELTA (shout out to Delta Sigma Theta they all seem to be cool as hell, wit me at least)...

anyway... she decided to share a fun-fact with me... and that fact is that the black greek sorority AKA has their own damn BARBIE DOLL!... this was funny as hell, i couldnt believe this shit so i looked it up when i got home and sure enough there she was pretty, fair skinned and all... but none the less a black(or lack there of) Barbie...

i jsut wanted to share that wit yall... i found it entertaining for a short amount of time yesterday... if u want more info CLICK HERE

they say... "get out and ENJOY the DAY"

2008-07-07T11:58:00.000-07:00

For my boy Z-A's bday he decided he wanted to be "original" and he planned a bike ride thru SAN FRANCISCO... to keep it real at first thought i was against it... But it was different, so what the hell...
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I ended up havin' hella fun... check out the pics...

happy 26th bday Smitty...

yours truely in front of the TRANS AMERICA BUILDING!

this pic is dope to me... the TRANS AMERICA BUILDING again.

SMITTY and the bike chaos... "ayyyy where yo shirt at!"... hahaha

hit the JUNETEENTH celebration

then to the bar...

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AND THE SCENERY WAS PRICELESS!

COIT TOWER

view from the tower

Bay Bridge from afar...

TRANS AMERICA building

the windiest street in the world... at the top of LOMBARD STREET

and this my friends is the staple of the BAY AREA as a whole.

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We decided to do this once a month from now on so i hit ya wit pics next time around.

they say... "that's some NEXT LEVEL sh*t"

2008-07-02T13:47:00.000-07:00

My homegirl told me about this and i had to see for myself... this is crazy!... AND I WANT 1...lol!

crazy right?... yea!... i jus wonder what actually happens in the event of an accident... does the person crash right into the people inside the car?... what do u think?

they say... "Pass it on!"

2008-06-30T11:53:00.000-07:00

I was tagged by the sexy Ms. EB...

"List seven songs that you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring summer. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to."

My 7 songs are as follows:

1... Hezekiah- I See Yaw (feat. Jaguar Wright)... i listen to this song everyday, its so REAL!

2... Blu & Exile- No Greater Love... this song describes a situation i was goin thru in such detail, dope lyrics too

3... EMC- Say Now... just a tight song!

4... Tupac- Against All Odds... this is hands down my fav. song of all time, and i had to listen to it alot this weekend, i was pissed

5... Trey Songz- Last Time... cant front this song is the shit!

6... Jaheim-I've Changer (feat. Keyshia Cole)... helllllla tight!

(There is a tie) for 7...

- Duchess S.- "Stay"... this is how u be feelin sometimes!

- Duchess S.- "Here We Go Again"... this is sooooo real!

NOTE: Duchess S. is a new artist that i know personally... check the songs i mentioned out on her MySpace page... CLICK HERE

IM TAGGING.......

- Ms. Puddin
- Smitty's Soliloquy
- Muze
- Cap City
- The Flyyest
- Karrie B.
- Still Poca

they say... "REVENGE is a sweet VICTORY"

2008-06-24T17:54:00.000-07:00

2day my homegirl hit me on myspace with a video i found highly entertaining... yall prolly already see and/or heard about it... Shaq on stage at a night club freestyling, gettin @ Kobe!... seeing as tho' i dont like Kobe (respect his game but dont like him as.... u know what i cabt stand him as a person) i was crackin up @ the main lyricss of the freestyle which are, "KOBE!... TELL ME HOW MY ASS TASTE!"

LMAO... but then i felt it went to far when SPORTSCENTER got a hold of it...

this lil BS rap supposedly got Shaq dismissed as a sheriff... like he really needed the money... hahahaha... thats extra funny... check out that story HERE.

they say... "maaaaan FUCK WORK!"

2008-06-22T14:59:00.000-07:00

JUST A LIL SOMETHIN' TO HELP MY BLOG HOMIES THRU THEIR MONDAY, TOMORROW!

hahahahaha... a friend e-mailied me this shit...

CDC Alert

The Centers for Disease Control has issued a medical alert about a highly contagious, potentially dangerous virus that is transmitted orally, by hand, and even electronically. This virus is called Weary Overload Recreational Killer (WORK). If you receive WORK from your boss, any of your colleagues or anyone else via any means whatsoever - DO NOT TOUCH IT. This virus will wipe out your private life completely. If you should come into contact with WORK you should immediately leave the premises, take two good friends to the nearest grocery store and purchase one or both of the antidotes - Work Isolating Neutralizer Extract (WINE) and Bothersome Employer Elimination Rebooter (BEER). Take the antidote repeatedly until WORK has been completely eliminated from your system.

You should immediately forward this medical alert to five friends. If you do not have five friends, you have already been infected and WORK is controlling your life.

and how many times have u felt like doin this... CLICK HERE

they say... "she AINT neva LIED..."

2008-06-22T14:19:00.000-07:00

my boy DRAMAKING510 posted this and i STOLE it...lol... but enjoy!

This shit right heeeeere!... had me crackin up!... but u cant say it aint the truth!

"U GOTTA DO SOME HOE SHIT!"... hahahahahaha!

they say... "IT will catch up with u SOONER or LATER"

2008-06-19T17:09:00.000-07:00

The homie sent me an email 2day informing me that 54 people from Oakland were arrested because they were all tied a gang organization know as "THE ACORN BOYS"...

trust me when i say their well known, they're from whats (argueably) considered the worst part of Oaklnd... WEST OAKLAND... but with that said i wont make it seem like every other region is the BURBS cuz there are some other fucked parts in THE TOWN too.

but this shit is crazy... 54 people at once... shit is sad!... we'll see how this plays out!

click here------> CHANNEL 7 NEWS

they say... "he got TALENT"

2008-06-18T16:43:00.000-07:00

click this link BROSTAB.COM sample clip!

My boy Kareem had me checking this dudes web design site... i seen it and was super impressed... he's too clean wit it tho!

I love shit like this it makes me wanna get into it!

if u wanna check the whole site out click here --------> BROSTAB.COM

they say... "DON'T CROSS the line..."

2008-06-14T13:46:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA!.... and anotha 1...

have u ever experienced this... lafao @ "GRAPE SODA"

they say... "thats ME..."

2008-06-12T16:31:00.000-07:00

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first i put in "G-SWEET"...

What Gsweet Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

then... i put in GARY!

What Gary Means

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

WOW!... THESE ARE BOTH SOOOOOO ME!!!

they say... "they're startin' em' out YOUNG!"

2008-06-09T15:28:00.000-07:00

my boy kept tellin' me about this... I finally seen it...this is prolly' one of the tightest YOUTUBE videos I've seen...

*shakes head*... lil man is on his P's & Q's... His name is BAM-BAM

not mad at him @ all... taking care of his son and teaching him an extra curricular activity in the process... only negative i see is he has the lil one lifting weight, lil man is too young for that his body is still developing.

yall peep how the host tried to feel the "black hair???... hahahaha!"

they say... "keep it real sonnnn!"

2008-06-08T20:18:00.000-07:00

seen this the 2day and had to share...

they say... "i CAINT' believe this SHIT!!!"

2008-06-07T05:00:00.000-07:00

i got a riddle fa yall...

WHATS THE FASTEST WAY TO AN EARLY GRAVE???...

*the answer is below*

i can guarantee and re-assure u... all i woulda got was this...

accept mines woulda been closed...

that goes for me and any of u other black folks... and if i woulda lived the doctor woulda been like...

"You're not the first ni**a we had to put the BLACK back on"!

they say... "whats really HOOD!?"

2008-06-03T17:51:00.000-07:00

it is the truth tho'!...

hahahahaha!... "one thing i've learned about debt... is... if i die I WIN!"

they say... "this is just the BEGINNING"

2008-06-03T17:27:00.000-07:00

CONGRATS ON THE VICTORY HOMIE... lol!

well looks like we (yes i said "WE"... this is a team effort...lol!)...

i chose my headline because i feel like the media and the politicians are goin to make this next few months hell for Barack Obama... just look at this shady ass shit... now these fuckas got the nerve to voice their opinion on the thought of assassination...

some1 please let her ass have it!...

THANK U!!!

ANNNND... i dont find this shit funny at all... Huckabee is a BITCH!

*some* white people are just evil!

they say... "WHY do BAD things happen to GOOD people?"

2008-06-03T16:41:00.001-07:00

Doin alotta thinking and praying for my "ex"...

*quick background*
Around 2002/2003 me and my "ex" decided it would be good for us to go our separate ways... the relationship was in a "fizzling out" faze... after that we did the on and off thing for a few years... that led to me and her having a conversation about how we truly felt and she told me that she wanted to get engaged and have a baby... i was shocked! (but not really)... the additive to this is that she was told by a doctor that she would have serious complications when she decided to get pregnant, and the older she got the higher her risk would be. (she's 2 years older than me)

With that said i decided i was young and i wasnt ready, and i've always seen myself getting married before i bring a child into this world... but we were on 2 totally different pages future wise, so we finally split and went our separate ways.

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We remained friends keeping each other posted on our dating life, somewhat... about 7 months ago she called me to get my wishes on her being pregnant and i told her i was exited for her and that i hoped everything went well...

The last few months shes had complication all around the table... with the father, and more importantly with her health, and the babies health.

As a friend i went to an appointment with her where they ran some tests and everything was looking like it might be "ok!"...

She's been in the hospital a few days and i've been saying i was goin to see her but i was putting it off... so i set aside time to go see her today... i get out to the side of the bay that her hospital is and i get a call from her sister informing me that, "the baby didnt make it"... the babies heart wasnt beating... she was in her 7th month... the worst part is she still has to give birth in a few hours.......................

I feel like shit right now... i shoulda just went to visit the other day when i found out she was in the hospital but instead my selfish ass put it off... by no means could i have changed anything but as a friend i could have been there if it was just to show my face!

Jackie, i know u cant read this BUT im so fuckin' sorry this happened to u... all u ever realllly wanted in this world was to look ur own child in the eyes!... i'll pray for you and for your situation and i hope u get thru this... this is going to be a trying time in your life and if u need me i'm here!

they say... "if only i had THOUGHT of it 1st"

2008-06-01T21:35:00.000-07:00

What if i invented "pu**y-in-a-can"... no not really ...lol... but if it were possible how much money would i be lookin @ profit wise...jus think... hahahaha!

HOPE YALL HAD A GOOD WEEKEND!

they say... "CONGRATULATIONS graduate"

2008-05-25T03:26:00.000-07:00

Congrats to Ms. Puddin who graduated from college this weekend... im proud of u homie!... Journalism major... 2 thumbs up!...

On a personal level i take graduation seriously (ironically im not even close to being finished...lol) and make sure my friends and close associates feel proud of their achievement when they walk the stage to get the "receipt" that says ur officially considered smart in your field of study.

i figure people celebrate holidays, bdays, anniversaries, etc., any1 can do that... but every1 obviously cant graduate from a university!...

ummmm... yea and soooo... this is what she has learned in her time in college... lmao... well now its time to f*cked up... my bday passed, u graduated, and its a 3 day weekend (like i really need a reason to get drunk)... see u a black grad 2morrow homie!

they say... "the OLDER i get the BETTER i get!"

2008-05-16T10:35:00.000-07:00

*(NOTE) I TYPED THIS ON FRIDAY, MAY 16TH BUT BLOGGER WAS ACTIN A DAMN FOO'*

Hey people... so 2day is my bday... 26 years ago 2day it was said that
the world would never be the same (i dunno who said it, but it was
said...lol)... and there was I!...

So i decided to post some pics for my readers... FOLLOW ME!...

(dont ask)... EARLY 2 YEARS OLD... MOMS HAD ME IN A BABY
PAGEANT... IN 82' A KING WAS BORN...

2 YEARS OLD @ MOMS WEDDING...

fasssssst forward...

I WAS 13.. IN THE 8TH GRADE... (my boy Z-A Smitty is in the all
white)... U SEE US!...

I WAS 14... 9TH GRADE WINTER BALL...

fassssst forward...

18 YEARS OLD... THE YEAR WAS 2000... I MISS HIGH SCHOOL... SLHS... SO MANY MEMORIES...

LMAO... I LOVE THIS PIC... IT HILARIOUS TO ME... I WAS 20... THIS WAS
IN 2002... IM LOOKIN EXTRA HOOD (yes those are corn rows)

AT AGE 21... I STILL LOOKED LIKE I WAS 15... LOL...

THESE PICS ARE FROM MY 25TH BDAY LAST YEAR...

had a flyer and everything...

ANNND OF COURSE... THIS IS ME TODAY...

special bday shout out to the EB... i see you my fellow Taurus

they say... "what IF?..."

2008-05-12T02:48:00.000-07:00

so a few weeks ago... while at a family dinner in honor of my grandfather who passed away... my goofy ass cuzin (the same 1 who makes it rain on his infant child CLICK HERE) is walkin around my grandmothers house with a dreadlock wig on...

this shit was funny as hell... a tall ass light skinned dude wit jet black dreads... it had me rollin especially cuz i know he borderline retarded (not really)...lol...

so of course, me also being a family clown... i give it a go to see "WHAT IF"...

ive always wondered what i would look like with dreads... let me tell you the shit was pure comedy cuz any1 who knows me *really* personally knows im too neat for that shit, dont have the patience.

i walked around the house with it on for like 2 hours... me and the fellas went out that night and one of the SMITTY'S convinced me to wear the shit in the club... and u know i agreed....

so heres the finish product... hahahahahaha!...............

... ...

so after an easy evaluation... i realized that shit aint fa' me...lmao...

okay 1 more for the road... lol...

they say... "he NEEDS his lil' ass BEAT!"

2008-05-11T13:41:00.000-07:00

It's been on the news... BUT... just in case u havent... PEEP THIS SHIT!...

CLASSIC LINE FROM A 7 YR. OLD, "i just wanted do hoodrat suff wit my friends!"

this is my birth control for the rest of 08'...

his grandmother is pissed!

they say... "AIN'T that some SHIT?"

2008-05-07T15:32:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey people... just here to post some randomness today... some o this may have already been covered but this i post is long over due... its bee some crazy, ignant, and wierd shit goin on these past few months... CHECK IT OUT!...
(these are in no particular order just)

1st off... when did this happen?

am i really that far outta the loop... not that i could give a damn with a small side of a f*ck but did yall even know they were dating?... stop lyin No yall didnt... i never seen it on POCA'S blog so i wasnt expectin it... thats all im sayin! NEXXXXXXT...

I cant believe it yall... is goin to jail... wait i mean.....
... yea... him... dude from "White Men Cant Jump"... Wesley they finally caught yo black ass... shiiiiit if i had to pay $500 to government for some f*ckin taxes... yo ni**a ass is payin too... orrrrr u can simply go to jail for 3 years... i keep tellin yall these white folks aint playin wit they money... they are pimps... and they will smack a hoe! (and yes you/me/we are the hoes)... NEXXXXXXT...

ohhhhh snap sonnnn (in my fake NY voice)... yall seen the IRON MAN movie yet?...

not much to say... hellllla tight... and i like the fact that the character of Tony Starks/Iron Man (Robert Downey Jr.) was a straight arrogant asshole...lol!... NEXXXXXXT...

"Its party time, Ohhhhhh its party time"... how many of yall remember this rapper named Tracy Lee... he had that 1 song "The Theme (its a party)"... okay u prolly dont... thank God for YouTube...

"and evrywhere that my crew go/
and every hoe that my crew know/
and every show that my crew blow/
u know we get down"

i was watchin an old ass episode of New York Undercover and it came on and i was like that shit used to be tight... what happened to dude *shruggs shoulders*... NEXXXXXXT...

okay while we're on music... gotta point out my flavor the month a few months ago... seen her on TV and was thinking perverted things... u know i be on my BROWNSKIN LADIES...
... i was feelin her!...
then i was highly disappointed when i went lookin for pics... *shaked head*... *sigh*... i'll just say this video does her justice and i'll keep that mental pic of her......... oh and did yall see Whitney actin like she had a lil sense... Ray J is layin pipe and stoppin crack habits, hmmm thats at least a point for man of the year... right... NEXXXXXXT...

hey... got a question for yall... WHO'S BEEN KEEPING THEIR NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS?... dont lie to me... i know yall fell off... i ask cuz i strayed away from mines for a few weeks but im back on... get on it my fellow bloggies!... ... NEXXXXXXT...

Hahahahaha... i just watched this shit again and was die'in laffin... this commercial cracks me the f*ck up...

hahahahahahahahaa!... NEXXXXXXT...

okay... lets get to some personal shit... im not sure what other states or areas have a NATION'S hamburger spot...

(this is the one in downtown OAKLAND)
BUT... they have their own recipe for Strawberry Cheesecake... that shit is hellllllla good...

(sorry the pic is so small)
i cant even describe how good it is... but while trying to... i came up with this nick name for it........................ PU$$Y ON A FORK... f*ck what you talkin' bout... it's just about that damn good!... i'll post a personal pic of it next time i go!... NEXXXXXXT...

aiiiight... my friend got me listenin' to this radio show called
MOVIN 99.7- LOVE TRAP...

(click the link)
this is radio show is dedicated to catchin' people cheating and puttin em' on blast... via the radio... its helllla funny!... listen to a few of em... NEXXXXXXT...

and lastly i wanna point out a few things ive noticed... is it me or do these people not look too much alike?...

ICE T..... & .....YUNG BERG

ANTHONY ANDERSON..... & .....CAIN LOPEZ(comedian)... it was hard to find pics

TIK (from flavor of love)..... & .....WEBSTER (emmanuel lewis)

LIL WAYNE..... & .....KHIA

side bar... while lookin for pics of khia i ran across this shit... had me rollin... look @ k-Ci from Jodeci... CONCRETE LOOP... its old but its worth a laff!

HAHAHAHAHAHA... IT WAS FUN PEOPLE but im out!... see ya sooner than later!

they say... "You got KNOCKED the FUCK OUT!!!"

2008-04-20T13:59:00.000-07:00

ummmm... soooo... has any1 ever been knocked out?... well even if u have im sure it wasnt like this...

watch as these dudes have u crackin up...

WTF is he punchin @ while he's knocked out... lmao!

yea sooo why is fighting all the ppl. tranna help his ass...lololol!

thats a way to make sure the fight is over.

first things 1st bra... did u miss day 1?

was that a dance he was doin???

oh yea... and 1 for the road...

"im not gay"... lmfbao!

they say ... "u cant JUDGE a book by it's COVER"

2008-04-12T19:12:00.000-07:00

im on a video kick 2day... cuz i dont get to be on the computer much these days... not for fun at least but im gonna get back to it...

anywho... look @ this lil girl... she is on straight "f*ck u up" status... she like 8 tho'...

SAMMIE SMITH is the name whoopin ass is the game!

oooohhhhh.... yaaaaoooooh.... lmao

the sound effects are priceless... i hope her future boyfriend doesnt piss her off...

they say... "its from the SOUL"

2008-04-12T19:05:00.000-07:00

jus came across this and was soooo feelin' the vibe... sometimes i wish a lived in the 70's!!!

he sounds good and he layin down half the damn time... *shakes head*

R.I.P. MG!

they say... "that AINT a bad IDEA"

2008-03-17T13:25:00.000-07:00

With election time here and all I figured I'd share an idea I've had for a long time wit all my bloggers... this is "MY" idea so don't be tranna steal it... don't even be tranna tell ya friends u thought of it...lmao...

Okay... outside of the current election (seein as tho Obama got it on lock right now)... in prior elections have u ever felt like u didn't exactly know who u wanted to vote for... but u knew for DAMN SURE who u didnt want in office? (i.e. BUSH)...

Well a while back I came up with the idea of a NEGATIVE VOTE...

The negative strips a vote away from the candidate of ur choice thus taking ur single vote away... so u may not be able to vote for a person but u inturn were able to take a vote away from the candidate of ur choice.

Sooooo... what do ya think?... would u use ur NEGATIVE VOTE if it were possible???

*not necessarily this election, most of us already got our minds made up*

they say... "MI casa es SU casa"

2008-03-16T19:58:00.000-07:00

well i finally got back to my postin this weekend cuz its ugly durin the week as far as posting...

i also finally got the chance to add some of u to my BLOG ROLL... so WELCOME... so now i can stop blog stalkin' some of u, haha!

MUZE... welcome to my blogroll cuz ur soooo fuckin fly! (need i say more)

TOM_GURL... welcome to my blogroll im such a loser for waitin this long to add you... u've been holdin it down in my spot... oh yea, and the layout is niiiice... i luv floetry!

DEJANAE... welcome to my blogroll and u have the most eye catching profile photo, (me bein the perv i am) was like, "wait, is that a thong"... hahaha... but ur fully dressed and @ least i tricked myself into some good readin'

THE FLYYEST... welcome to my blogroll... anybody who needs two "Y's" to define their FLY has to be on my blogroll... im feelin ya blog... whats the weather like in Seattle?

(ps) shout out to the thiz face u and the baby got goin on

BRITTANY_83... welcome to my blogroll i read ur last 3 blogs and for some reason they got me... i like, i like... hope to see u here more often!

AND I AINT 4GOT ABOUT ALL MY OTHER BLOGGIES... IM STILL TRANNA HOLD IT DOWN AND POST EVEN THO "THE MAN" IS HATIN...LOL...

they say... "this is like a MOVIE"

2008-03-15T22:37:00.000-07:00

I seen my mom last sunday evening and me, her, and the fam were @ my grandmothers house just chillin shootin the shit and what not... so when it was time to go my moms husbands son (my step-brother) outta no where comes in to say hi... I haven't seen him in months... and last time I talked to him he had just got out the hospital from being shot (mind u he's only 18 *I think*) so I'm kinda juiced to see him...

While he says hi to every1 I see my mom gettin her shit 2gether to leave so I'm like how u gettin home she was like Dion (her husband) is outside but all of a sudden she seemed in a different mood... so I give her that look and say is everything coo'... and she gives me that look back and says I'll call u in a lil bit... so she leaves and I eventually go on my merry way...

I had a date that night... so as soon as I sit down at the restaurant my phone rings its my mom... so I answer and she says, "can you talk"... if u know my mom that means its somethin important she's about to say... I reply yea, wussup... and then the icing on the cake she says, "CHECK THIS OUT!"... now when my mom says that u know its good, u know it aint nothin like a death in the fam BUT a good ass story is definitely finna pop off...
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SO HERE WE GO...

My mom's husband has hella kids... I'm close to 3 of em their all boys and @ 1 point they lived wit us when my mom got married including his daughter who is my age but she's waaaay out there so I dont associate with her...

Dion (my moms husband) also has 1 other daughter... she's the youngest of all his kids... I'd like to think she's 16 or 17...

Her name is TIFFANY she lives with her brother Damien (mentioned above), her grandmother (on her moms side), and an aunt in WEST OAKLAND...

For those outta-TOWN-ers... West Oakland is one of the grimiest places in the bay in current time... one of those "you don't wanna get lost after dark" places... one of those "you need a gun cuz, shit... everybody else got 1" typa place... GET IT, GOT IT, GOOD!...

So Tiffany has a boyfriend.. he's a "D-boy" (for the sheltered ppl.... that means he sells dope...lol)...

So get this Tiffany's boy friend is obviously handlin his street biz because for whatever reason he had a duffel bag wit $70,000 in it *(insert lil wayne's "duffel bag boy" song here)*... and he had some other serious biz to handle so he had Tiffany stay at her house wit the duffel bag...

*blank look*... okaaaaaay!... (I mean I don't condone sellin drugs but if u gon' do it do it right... and I know that AINT RIGHT)

Like I said she's young... and young ppl. are dumb... so what does Tiffany do... Tiffany walks around the house braggin about amongst other family members who don't even live in her house...

A few hours go by and two of her family member leave... I don't know if they were uncles or what but... they were gone...

I know ur thinkin, "wait... was the money still there when they left"....

YEP... it was still there... bout $20,000 short but the rest was still there...lol...

*shakin head!*... This is where the shit gets good...

So the 20 G's is gone and all of a sudden a few days later the two family members are all of a sudden pushin new lex's... 2 lexus' that look like they mighta cost about 10-thou a piece... yep the $20,000 had been stolen and spent... the boyfriends back and he's 20,000 racks short of the $70,000 he left wit his woman... and she runs the story down to him as I just did to u...

So @ this point the shit turns real... cuz the boyfriend explains that the money in the duffel bag wasn't just fun-money...

Turns out he was supposed to be delivering that money to his boss man... the king pin so to say... if any of u like action movies u realize this dude is fucked right... EXACTLY!!!

We'll not only does he sell dope he must have a pimps mouth piece cuz he turned the remaining $50,000 in said whatever he said to the Boss man didn't get killed... but he did run this whole story down to the Boss man (with Tiffany present) just as I did to u...

So now the Boss man makes some calls:

- has the two family members raised up otta the lexus'

- puts the word out on the street that he's not playin about his money... and that causes every1 in Tiffany's household (grandmother, aunt, brother, and Tiffany herself) to up and move so they don't become a target

- does his street work to find out who Tiffany's family is

- some how gets a hold of Tiffany's cell phone

Goes thru the phone and notices a name in the contact list... it reads, "DADDY"... the Boss Man presses TALK...

My moms husband answers thinkin its his daughter, so a mans voice asks is this Dion, he says "yes"... the Boss man asks a few more questions to confirm that he is indeed speaking with her father... when he gets the confirmation needed he then changes his tone (alot more aggressive)...

The Boss man then runs this whollllle story down just i did to u and when he finishes he says, "Check this... i need my money... so you need to come up $20,000... i dont want no interest, i aint tranna make a profit off of u but i need to see that money and soon, END OF DISCUSSION"... hangs up and thats it!...
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as of current her brother has been stayin wit my mom to keep out the way of that neighborhood... my moms husband has been carrying a gun when he feels necessary, and says he aint got the money and aint gettin it... nobody has heard from Tiffany... and thats all i know...

so u tell me DOES THIS or DOES THIS NOT sound like a damn move script?????????

well it aint, its real life!... but i see where they get these scripts from tho!

(sorry it was so long)

ps. i wonder how many of yall read the whole thing???

they say... "EVERY1 is UNIQUE in their own way"

2008-03-14T18:27:00.000-07:00

I was fishin around on KANYE's blog and I seen this interesting post about these 5 people in NY who only wear 1 color all day every day...

***CLICK HERE TO READ***

So my question is... if u had ro wear 1 color for a full year... no loopholes what color would you choose?

I'd choose blue or black... okay... black... cuz u can wear it hella different ways... I mean even in the summer I usually wear black wife beater so I think I could pull it off.

they say... "it's MUSIC to my EARS"

2008-03-10T13:00:00.000-07:00

at work 2day im listenin' to my Itunes (as usual) and i wasnt feelin my normal hip-hop playlists so i decided to bumop some ISLEY BROTHERS... and towards the end of the album 1 of my favorite songs came on...

ISLEY BROTHERS- AT YOUR BEST YOU ARE LOVED

and then i started thinkin i love the song but honestly my favorite rendition of it is by AALIYAH...

AALIYA- AT YOUR BEST YOU ARE LOVED

damn her voice is BEAUTIFUL!!!

they say... "that NI66AS crazy" (FIXED)

2008-03-04T13:05:00.000-08:00

it just felt appropriate... LMAO!... shakin head...

"who said somethin' about oil... bitch u cookin!"

they say... "i DONT get it!"

2008-02-27T13:38:00.000-08:00

so if any of u seen the new Kanye "flashing lights" video (which i posted last week)...

u prolly' like what the hell is goin on... well here is an explanation from... not saying its correct but it fits...

click here

they say... "WHO is THAT?"

2008-02-24T16:18:00.000-08:00

i seen KARRIE B do it... she said she got it from her boy DON... imma do it... just a bit lazier tho'...

basically its a compiled list of my blog friends... who they are... and what purpose they serve to me...

LETS GET TO IT:

1st and foremost i MUST start with MS. PUDDIN'... who i call MS. P... this is a personal friend of mine ( in real life)... but it is her who got me in the this crack habit we all call blogging... i love droppin by her spot cuz she's so real when it comes to her blogs... shes says shit that even "I" might keep to myself... plus anybody who continuously loses their underwear and can laugh about it is AIIIIGHT WIT ME!...

ohhh yea... also when she introduced me to this i was goin thru some shit and this was kinda therapeutic, so i wanna say thank u!
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next up we got......... SMITTY... a best friend in real life, this dude is highly entertaining on many different levels... smart enough to talk about politics but stupid enuff discuss the the shape of the lateset video chicks ass...

Smitty can easily be labeled a renaissance man... he knows alot photography, art, history, and shit like that... his blog(s) are a collage of those things sprinkled with funny shit
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next... STILL POCAHONTAZ... who i refer to as STILL P... this is a very outgoing individual, i say that because... in a sense she gives every1's blog a once over... i see her everywhere in the blog world (at least mines anyway)... Poca has that coo' big sis feel when she responds...lol...

i know ever1 agrees with me when i say she keeps us all up to date with the celeb gossip!... i know i would know shit about famous folks if it wasnt for her ass...
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nexxxxt... is... EB THE CELEB... cute, darkskin, and knows EVERY FUCKIN BODY!(or @ least takes pics with em'...lol)... sometimes i wish i was in ur field of work seems like ur always at an event and traveling...

her blogs seem to be real... and i enjoy the pics... keep em' commin Eb!
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next up... MISTER UNDERHILL... i swear i never know what im gonna get when i hit the link to his page... this dude is hilarious... just for point of reference i went to a part of his blogspot that had naked titties with words scribbled on em... to keep it real and be honest i couldnt even tell u the point of that section of his blog... alllll i remember is there were naked breast... not exactly my flavor but shiiiit it works for me! ;0)...hahaha!
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next up we got... OPINIONATED DIVA... i refuse to write the word "opinionated" every single time i respond to her... so i call her O-DIVA... she hands down comes off as 1 of the realest blogger that i frequent... i love stoppin there to read about some work drama & flashback fridays... that shit usually has me crackin up... oh yea and i was diggin the voice blog ma'... i usually hit her blog on the daily!
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who's next... ummm... MS. BEHAVING... one of the cleverest names so far... but since im lazy she's MS. B when im referring to her... straight outta NY, this 50 cent loving women is also on my daily checklist, i luv her real life situations and the real life reactions when she gets pissed... she another person that too real for words.
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moving along to CAP CITY... i usually find myself sticking my head in her kitchen window whe i wanna see what shes up to... i have a confession... my lazy ass has been peekin and not speakin, so with that said i need to start being vocal on ya page ma

CAP holds it down on my page wit the comments, u betta quit bein a stranger woman!
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on tooooo... MS. LADY... diggin the shit out ya page cuz when im on it feels like i really know u, like u really the homie... ya shit is real and strait forward... the video blog was a perfect example of that... ur comments are funny as hell too... keep it up & keep it real (i know u wont have a problem doin that)
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and lastly... the latest addition to my blog roll is KARRIE B.... probably one of new favorites... she a fly-girl... she be havin me crackin up too... thats my new hang out spot... lmao!...
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HONORABLE MENTIONS:

- MUZE
- WRKNPROGRESS
- TOM GURL

they say... "that's FAMILY BUSINESS"

2008-02-21T13:48:00.000-08:00

(found this pic and its very symbolic of this post... it represents a mother son bond and a new child...)

Anybody remember me a postin a few weeks back about how my mother and my brother don't get along.... okaaaaay sooooo...

That shit continues... and bothers the fuck outta me... I have to middle man and mediator for these 2 to communicate...

1st off... my mom and my brother CONSISTANTLY get into it... but the last time they really got into it moms threw em out (not like I didn't see that shit commin) and my brother moves in with my grandmother...
didn't change his ways just his location...

so while they're seperated... I don't like it because my moms @ home alone most of the time and she has diabetes and it gets outta hand at times, so I'm not comfortable with her there by herself...

Moms and bra barely speak... so the other day my brother calls me and is sayin how he's pissed cuz my mother got a credit card in his name (which I would be too, if I didn't even have 1)... and he says my mom told him nothin about it... blah blah blah...

AND THEN THE KICKER!... when he's done with that whole spill... he non-chalantly says and I quote:

"Oh yea!... u gon' be a uncle... I forgot to tell you that"

So naturally I'm like, WHAT??? (if he woulda said siiiiike he woulda had me, but he was 4real)... I'm like, "by who" he says his girlfriends name (u know u gotta ask these day coulda been a random
chick) and I'm like, "don't play blood"... so he confirms that he's serious... and of course u know what the next quetion is..............

"YOU TOLD MOM YET"... *drumroll please*...

And of course u already knew... he says, "No, I told EVERYBODY else accept her and grandma"... and like a 6 year old... I go "OOOOHHHHHHHHHHH!"... and then like an adult I sad, "NIGGA U TRIPPIN!!!"...

we had a death in the family recently(...blog comming) and he's used that for his reason not to tell... so now i gotta play dumb... WTF!

sorry if im gettin all kind of serious in my blogs but shits crazy in my world at the moment!... peace and thanx 4 ur patience my fellow bloggers!

they say... "get it OFF ya CHEST" (LATE)

2008-02-21T13:30:00.000-08:00

*Things some ppl. in my personal life need to know (but I don't wanna be an asshole)...*

Let me start off by saying I'm not mad at any1 specific... nobody did shit... I'm just reflecting on some shit...

- 1 thing u can fuckin count on... ALWAYS!... is that I'll be ME!...
love it or leave it... at this point in my life I don't care which 1 u choose

- I have friends... the SMITTY's... theres nothin I won't do for them (pause/no homo)... their like brothers... so if u decide not to be my friend... sorry but it bothers me very little... Im not that excited about making new friends any way, I accept new associates but I don't go out looking for them

- I keep to myself... whatever I choose to not tell u is my business...
respect that and shut the fuck up!...

- yea I do think I'm too good for some shit... and I do show it @ times... that's me, I don't know how else to be

- Women enjoy my company just as I do theirs, what the hell u mad for...
get over it!

- I don't change... I may tighten or loosen up things about me but I never stray too far from being G-SWEET... I figure if people are attracted to me and/or accept me when they meet me its because there's something they see in me so why would I change???... shit u might not like the change, orrrrrr the change might not like you

- Insecure people are starting to get on my nerves... I'm not dealing with them anymore... nothing against u but I've noticed there's no helping or convincing these people... so I'll just stay away from them... if I meet a woman and she's insecure I'm walkin away... for real tho... that shit is played... life is too short to harp on the negative shit about URSELF of all people

- I hate when people change there character based on another person... I find that to be a weak-willed person... I feel like u should always be able to find urself within a situation no matter what... ur girlfriend/boyfriend, brother/sister, bestfriend, worse enemy... should not be the reason u change urself...
Now if ya married... hey u gotta do what u gotta do *shrugs shoulders*

PARTING WORDS:

I am the flyest ni**a walkin...
I am humbly-arrogant...
I dont care what u think...
I am too good for some shit...
Women love me...
Men envy me...
If I had nothing, I'd still have more to offer than most!

*back to my regular(LATE) scheduled blogging*

they say... "did u see that???" (LATE)

2008-02-20T13:27:00.000-08:00

[DISCLAIMER]... due to the haters @ the work place i will be postin most of my shit a day or two late... just check the late tag at the end of the title... thanx!
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(SORRY CANT FIND A LIVE VIDEO)

I know yall seen his performance @ the grammys... this dude is waaay to talented for the music that surrounds him... i.e... this IGNANT ASS NEGROE...

*shakes head*

... but im like... Kanye is an entertaining human being in general... the performance was crazy... the tribute to his mother was super emotional... thus showing he's is human (regardless how he acts)... and i cant front my fav. part hands down was when he put the sound operator in check... hahahahahahah.... i was crakin the fuck up!...

Did nanybody catch this, hella tight...

BIG BROTHER LIVE

has any1 peeped this video... hella wierd and odd aint it... but of course i dont mind the video... lmao!... wonder if they'll be another part to it!

FLASHY LIGHTS VIDEO

PEACE OUT!... get @ yall in a minute!

they say... "what all that damn NOISE?"

2008-02-14T04:48:00.000-08:00

some1 brought it to my attention that the music in my blog drowns out audio and video on my page... so adjustments have been made...

now when u hit the blog i made the music visible so u can turn the shit off as u wish... anything for the ppl.

G-SWEET SIGNIN' OUT!

They say... "you ever FEEL like somebodys WATCHING you"

2008-02-13T13:03:00.000-08:00

The 1st week of February the boss decided to run the office with a slightly different scheme... this required every1 to move to a different area... as soon as I got the mass e-mail I knew somethin about this wasn't gon' go in my favor... so they promoted a few ppl and split every1 up into small teams... my team is coo... I was only familiar with 1 person in my group prior to the move...

The day b4 the big move another mass e-mail went out with an actual seating chart... at that point I'm like are we in the fuckin 3rd grade...lol

Now... when I finally got my seat I was like wowwww... 4real... that's
how yall feel... now 1st off my old seat was dead smack in the middle of
the room... our office is set up like cubicles with no walls... just alotta ppl. in a room but everybody has a computer...

so i got a seat right in the line of sight of the supervisors so its ugly, my computer screen is visible to them but my back is turned to them... they can see me but i cant see them... this is what it looks like:

now 1 supervisor is coo'... but the other is a jerk!... so evertime i look over my shoulders i see him looking in my direction... as the chart shows he's the supervisor marked in the dark red... let the bright red lines be the l;ine of sight... lol... but its NOT funny!

so my lead comes over the other day and goes jus givin' u a heads up the he's (asshole sup.) is watchin u evertime i look over there... so i was like ok!... WOW!...c an we say WOW!

its coo tho... cant a brotha down tho!

they be like yall cant use the internet, but when they leave... i be on it again!

so this is whjat i have to say about it all...

they say... "FUCK THAT SHIT!, maaaaan!"

2008-02-12T13:47:00.000-08:00

Ya knowwww... I can't stand punk ass shit!... on my momma tho!... I'm hella mad right now!...

Peep game... I came in to work an hour early cuz I had a few things I wanted to do (post 2 blogs being some of the shit I wanted to do)... but didn't want it to fall over into work time... so I figured an hour is coo'...

I get to work sit @ my desk... click on the mozilla firefox icon to start the net... and WTF!?.... the net is down... but it didn't bother me... I mean I coulda slept in a few minutes but... hey no biggie... I bs around clean off my desk... get shit in order so I can have a productive day and 10:00 rolls around... time to start work... no internet still... mind u we use the net to do work here...

So iim still thinkin tech is prolly' fixin the net problem... so I never tried to use the net again since I was kinda busy... a minute or 2 before lunch started the homie/co-worker Jomo (only othe real brotha up in this bitch) comes and looks @ my SIDEKICK and says, "ohhhh u lucky, aint no stoppin u huh"... I'm like "what u mean?"... he's like, "they gon' cut it on from 1:00 til 2:00... I'm still kinda puzzled... and he's like, "they cut the net off on us (us, as in our specific area, like 40 ppl. except the manager & supervisors), they trana' get people around here"... and that's when I get pissed and I'm like that's some BULLSHIT!...

Everybody was lookin like they cat just got ran over... me and the other 3 sidekick owners looked at each other in a "SUCKS FOR THEM KINDA LOOK" hahahaha!...

So I come to u today via SIDEKICK 3... fuck them haters up in here...

I got two post typed up fa my readers but they both require pics so work wit me...

Ps. I bet this shit was because of this punk ass sup. Up here... funny thing is b4 I even knew about this situation I wrote a blog about his ass...

"the say... you ever FEEL like somebodys WATCHING you"... coming soon

they say... "is it TIME to go YET???"

2008-02-08T16:32:00.000-08:00

FUCK! IM BORED!!!

i luv my job, but shit i so wanna get the hell outta here!... ITS FRIDAY!

well @ least this always entertains me:

YALL HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!

they say... "WHAT the HELL is he BABBLING about"

2008-02-08T10:21:00.000-08:00

hmmmm... its FRIDAY and im in a good mood and feelin a bit random as i usually do about this time during the week... so here we go...

QUESTION:
i know some of yall have mommas or yall mommas have friends wit those super long ass nails

its a bit inappropriate (no it aint) but ive always wondered HOW THE HELL DO THEY WIPE THEY ASS?... which also leads me to think that their nails have to be hella nasty seeing as tho... nevermind... just HOW?

QUESTION:
the other night while out to dinner, my date asked me a question that i never thought about... it kinda blew my mind... next time ur @ a restaurant, pick up a fork or spoon and just ask urself... HOW MANY MOUTHS HAVE BEEN ON THIS SPOON/FORK???... hmmm... something to think about huh!... makes u wanna take yo own shit to the restaurant with you...lmao!

QUESTION:
plain and simply... WHY HASNT R. KELLY WENT TO JAIL YET?... i mean i like thwe dudes music BUT he just really sang his way out of a court case.

QUESTION:
if im an american and my decendants are from africa thus giving me the politically correct title of AFRICAN-AMERICAN... thennnnnn... WHAT ARE BLACK PEOPLE FROM EUROPE WITH AFRICAN DECENDANTS CALLED??? AFRICAN-EUROPEANS?... i mean i know their not but why arent they?

FACT:
its impossible to explain color to some1 who was born blind. (got into a discussion about this not too long ago)

QUESTION:
Why dont i post as much as i use to?

QUESTION:
Where in the world is Carmen San Diego?... hahaha...lmao!

i encourage u to add to the list, u might just get and answer, or mybe u just want to make a statement.

they say... "PAY it forward"

2008-02-07T12:57:00.001-08:00

Yall ever seen that movie... its one of those inspirational humanitarian flicks with the message of, "passing on a random act of kindness"

So check this out... this morning I'm running late as usual... I'm talkin hella late... late like I live a lil over an hour (public
transportation) from my place of residence... I'm suppose to be at work at 10... I was a 2 blocks away from my house waitin for the bus at 9:15...

So I wait... and wait... and wait... I'm like WHAT THE FUCK... there no bus in sight... so I'm gettin pissed cuz shit like this makes me hella mad...

So as I'm standing there pissed off, I'm just looking @ cars pass by when I notice a clean ass silver mercedes benz... what I noticed first were the rims because cuz they were different, by now the car is @ a complete stand still so I observe the rest of it and see the dude drivin it... it was an indian guy about 35 on his cell phone with a blunt hangin out his mouth (I'm thinkin nah this ni**a aint smokin weed in broad daylight)... I laugh to myself and go back to waiting... when in no time @ all the indian dude had made a u-turn and pulled up next to me...

So I'm thinkin he needs directions... so I turn towards the car and he rolls the window down and says, "are you going to the BART station?" so I kinda gave em' raised eyebrow frown and that's when my thought process took over...

MY THOUGH PROCESS:

1st thought... wtf!?... is this ni**a gay and tranna pick up on me
[arrogant & homophobic]

2nd thought... I dunno about these indians folks, they be blowin shit up
[racist & prejudice]

3rd thought... if he say somethin outta pocket imma' beat his ass
[violent & ignorant]

4th thought... damn I do need to get to the BART station a.s.a.p. ...
and if somethin goes all bad I can always revert back to thought #3!...

So I reply, "what u say?"
And he asks again, "are you going to the BART station?"... u want a ride Just for confirmation I say, "are u goin that way?"
He says, "yea"...

So I grab my bag and get in... now I'm not gon' front I was still expectin some weird shit to happen... but that's just me... I'm a pessimist... expect the worse, hope for the best...

So now I'm in this clean ass benz with a fuckin stranger... she says, "I seen u waiting for the bus so I figured I'd give u a ride"...
so I say "thanks"...and proceed to make small talk... u know the usual, where do u work, u live around here, are u a murderer... shit like that!...

the guy goes on to say how he does this often when he's sees people waiting @ a bus stop... i was kinda shocked... but thats when it hit me there really are nice people left in the world even if the news tells u different.

he keeps talking and says, "people see my car and think, wow, but all this can be gone in a snap of a finger and i can be catching the bus, and i would like to think a person would give me a ride... people usually look at me like a weirdo when i offer but i understand... i use to catch the bus to but i dont have to any more but that doesnt mean i forgot what that situation is like"

i was like WOW!... thats deep... cuz i sure woulda smashed off... and then he asked me did i smoke (weed)... i was like "NAH" and he lit his blunt rolled his window down a proceeded to drive. he dropped me off asked my name and said have a coo' day and i did the same... he said his name was Karmit (*car-meet*... i guess thats how u spell it)... and that was that!...

AND THEN...

I get to my bus that takes to work and theres a black dude about my age there, he stood out cuz he was the only other black person around and he had on some clean ass air for 1's (even tho' im not a fan of those shoes)... while every1 is boarding the bus he digs in his wallet to get a few dolla out to pay and he is talking to the bus driver at the same time, i guess seeing how much it costs... this foo' drops a $100 and a $10 dollar bill on the ground as he steps on the bus...

NOW... yesterday he woulda been sooooo assed out it aint even funny... but since homie had gave the ride on some good samaritan shit... i tapped homeboy on the shoulder and was like, "ay u dropped somethin"... he was like OH SHIT!... thanx man!... DAMN! IM SLIPPIN! i was like yea that woulda been ugly!... he was like "ugly aint even the word"..

im an honest guy but that was hard to do... cuz it aint everyday that $100 bills just fall on the ground when nobody is lookin... but it aint everyday a stranger gives a young African-American male a ride in his benz when he's runnin late!

maybe this is how the world was originally designed!

they say... "SOME like it ROUGH"

2008-02-06T13:10:00.000-08:00

aiiight im back off hiatus... with what i think is a GOOD ONE!...
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Okay lets just get into this 1... I've recently found out that more women than i originally thought are into ROUGH SEX... i mean we all have that 1 friend or know that person that has done... is doing... and will do it all in the bedroom BUT im finding out women are really into this shit!

Now when i say ROUGH... i dont mean the classic ass slappin & hair pullin rough... im talkin the BITING, SLAPPING, CHOCKING kind of ROUGH!

I had a conversation with a woman im dating... and it went like this:

HER... i have a confession
GSWEET... what???
HER... i like to be fucked rough!
GSWEET... rough how?
HER... okay... i like to be chocked!
GSWEET... WHAT!?... chocked!, chocked!?
HER... yea... have u ever tried that?... are u even into that kinda stuff?
GSWEET... are u serious?... nah i aint never did that, im mean im down for new shit but aint nobody finna choke me tho!
HER... so what if i wanted u to choke me , would u?
GSWEET... maaan, i dunno... i aint use to that kinda shit

fast forward a few days later via text message...

GSWEET... so how exactly would i know when im goin to far?
HER... if i start turning pale and tranna' push u off of me, thats too much
GSWEET... lol... its dark how would i see if ur pale or not?... lmao
HER... u know what i mean
GSWEET... i guess!

after this im thinkin wow thats 2 ppl. i know personally that like that kinda shit... so i started asking females that i knew how they felt about this and come to find out like 3 or 4 other people i know personally like gettin CHOCKED OUT too. All this brings forth the term "SENSUAL CHOKE"... now the 1st time i heard this i was crackin the fuck up... im like, "that shit is an oxymoron"... the words sensual and choke dont even belong together... but one of my older more experienced homegirls assured me that people did this all the time, i was thinkin NO!, freaks like yo ass do shit like that all the time!... boy was i wrong!...

so when all this was goin on... i ran this shit past my boys (the SMITTYS)... the first response out of 1 of these NI**AS mouths was (i aint even gone bust em' out tho!), "SO DID U CHOKE HER ASS OUT!?"... that caused for me and the other SMITTY to crack up... as i reply, "nah blood, she just told me this shit"... but SMITTY didnt stop there, nope, thats not in his character, he goes hard... and replies... SHIIIT, IDDA' CHOKED HER ASS OUUUT!... im thinkin to myself that foo' is crazy.

anywho... i have a question...

HOW MANY OF U HAVE EXPERIENCED THIS? AND HOW COMMON DO U THINK IT IS?

they say... "these are the TIMES!"

2008-01-22T10:22:00.000-08:00

I finally got my ass out to a club this weekend... i been slippin on havin a social life... but this weeken i had HELLA FUN!, as usual... and u know ya boy was fly!... i thought i would see this character while i was out:

hahahaha!... but... no luck this weekend... PUDDIN. was tranna' act like she had a life and stayed home!
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SATURDAY...

my cuzin Dana turned 23...

and she demanded that i have my black ass at there... i swear i love this woman... she reminds me alot of myself in many ways... plus im partial to her over my other cousins because im the god father of her baby...

i aint been out in a minute... so i had to get FLY... got that good haircut cuz it was lookin ruff (which i found out some women like that shit, but it aint fa' me)... then i got that good manicure, got some fly shit out the closet i was feelin brand new!

anyway she wanted everybody to meet her @ this lounge in Oakland called the AIR LOUNGE... i love this place cuz of the atmosphere, the crowd, and the set-up is fly!... CLICK HERE FOR PICS

there are usually for the most part attractive women with somethin goin for them selves (not all of em, but more than a few ive met) and nobody really be on no bullshit tranna' fight or do too much. i know 1 of the female bartenders there so she hooked me and my boys up with the first round of drinks... we got there @ around 11:00 (a lil early) seeing as tho we beat the damn bday girl there (damn late ass black ppl.)... i seen a few ppl. i knew and chopped it up and got up to speed with them... one of the Smitty's ex-girlfriends was in there be hellllla annoying and obnoxious coming "THIS CLOSE" to gettin her ass whopped so many chicks in there. i mostly shot the shit wit my cuzin and flirted with my female friend that was there...

i ended up gettin hella drunk went to Smitty's house and crashed... only to wake up kinda early so i could be @ work on sunday from 10 til 7...
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SUNDAY...

Now sunday was the shit... we got this spot in san jo called "THE AGENDA"... and on any 3day weekend the shit cracks and all the local ppl. and hella other ppl. from the bay are there... as soon as i got out the car to go get in line i had to ask the fellas... is every woman thick now days... i swear i was barely out the car and group of about 4 girls were walkin down the street lookin like ponies about the ass region...

and that promised a great night ahead!...

we get in and of course we stay unique and fly... hit the bar with the intent to get FUCKED UP!... patron shots...

& long islands(thats what i had i dont know bout them)...

an hour into it im feelin my shit havin a good time... flirtin wit all my flings and sayin wussup to ni**as i aint seen in few months cuz i been anti-social when it hits me... ive been negleting my self of what every human needs... contact with other humans (preferably women) and alcohol... lmao!

it felt good to get out of my rut... i needed a haircut baaaad... i was lookin like rick ross about the chin...

and guess what i was supposed to go to work monday but i woke up late and it was raining so i started thinkin bout what SMITTY was sayin... "MAAAAN FUCK THEM CRACKAS I AINT GOIN TO WORK" (he didnt really say that but i know thats what he meant when he said whatever he said about not working on MLK DAY!)

in conclusion i need to set aside time to go out... it is necessary!
(how else would i have an excuse to do shit like this):

they say..."these are just MY THOUGHTS"

2008-01-14T19:08:00.000-08:00

2day i just seem to be in a random mood... its like all of a sudden i just got alot on my mind... alotta questions and few answers... things are just swimming around in my head...

the main thing i've been thinking about since this morning was the people i've decided to move on from and/or let go... was it for the best or was i being irrational?... i dunno but it seemed like the right thing to do @ the time... i'm just tired of dealing with some people and their ways... whether it be that their crazy, confusing, stupid, pointless, too emotional, etc etc etc...

another thing on my mind is my job... i swear i luv my job and in April my 6 months will be up and i will be eligible for a permanant position,, after talkin with my 2 supervisors they said my performance is above average and my accuracy is high, i just need to work on not being 5 to 10 minutes late on the regular (black ppl.) *shaking head*... i hope i can........... lemme rephrase that i will change that small problem cuz i really want to stay at this company...

any1 who knows me knows im this hard-core single person... all about being single but shit for the 1st time since my ex i think its gettin old... could be the weather... could be a phase... i dunno but i've been thinkin about having a girlfriend i just dont feel that way about any 1 person at the moment, every since my last "non-girlfriend" experience a while back i haven't seen that same type of interest spark yet... i dunno maybe i should just keep doin me like i originally planned... i guess i'll figure it out

my ex wanted talk to me in person so i agreed hadn't seen her in hella long... now when we were 2gether she found out she might not be able have kids, we NEVER tried but after they ran some test they told her she would have to go thru a procedure to get pregnant and that she should do it before she got too old (she's 28 now)... about a year and a half ago she asked me would i be father of her child when she went thru the procedure and i told her i couldn't do that cuz i didn't know what would be the situation with me and her and i don't plan on having kids until im married or @ least with the person i plan on marrying... so this talk she wanted me to have with her was basically what most call CLOSURE(even tho we've been apart for years)... the talk got real emotional as she cryed and told me she waited for me as long as she could (even tho' i told her to never wait for me)... so at that point she never told exactly what the convo was about except for closure... so like 2 weeks ago she lets me know she pregnant and asks for my blessings, i was happy for her, she always wanted to have a baby... since her i moved on with my life BUT i cant front that shit shocked me and made me think what if???... i remember sittin on the phone thinking to myself "LIFE IS SO NOT A GAME" and "time moves forward"... all-in-all... im happy for her and her situation but that shits been on my mind!

my living situation at the moment is hectic... im living with my best friends aunt and uncle (which is just like my aunt and uncle)... its hella coo' cuz it a reasonable commute to work vs. moving back to Oakland (40+ miles away from work)... the thing is that they have 7 kids that range from 6 to 18 and another live-in family member... i'm not use to not having my space... every since i moved outta my moms house i've had my own shit... so on a more personal level this is way outta my norm... its fun being over there but when im in my "G-SWEET MODE" i gotta go somewhere instead of jus bein home and chillin... i think i should be gone no later than mid February...

i've about had it up to my 4head with the fact that my mom and my brother don't get along... i don't know what to do its like a bad episode on a tv show... he's 18 and thinks he's grown so naturally my moms attitude is "if u grown do like grown ppl. do and get out"... and i cant fault her for that BUT f*ck man they need to get it 2gether... my brother moved to my grand mothers house and now my mother lives alone... her and her husband are on the rocks so he no longer lives there and with my brother gone it leaves me worried because she sickly so aat any moment i never know whats gonna happen... my family in general need to work on their family values...

lately i've been looking into investment so i can set up my finances so my money can work 4 me... i want to get a good African-American financial counselor, also i'm decided to re-vamp my business that i started 2 years ago "SWEET SPOT CLOTHING"... trust u'll hear more about this again soon...

i haven't been the same ol' me lately haven't had the desire to go out clubbin, i've voluntarily been workin long hours @ work, ive been jus kinda chillin out on the weekends, cant remember the last time i had a real date (wait it was like a month ago i think), not much really excites me anymore, WTF is goin on with me!?

(there's more but i'll keep that 2 myself)

WELL GOTTA GET BACK TO WORK... I'M HERE TIL' 11 2NIGHT (12 hr. day)... HOPEFULLY ALL THIS SHIT FALLS INTO PLACE!

they say... "big KIDS like big TOYS"

2008-01-10T14:32:00.000-08:00

my bdays not til May but in case any1 wants to know what i want...

*actual size ratio*

for larger picture: CLICK HERE
150 INCH PLASMA FLAT SCREEN TELEVISION... DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN!... IMAGIN WATCHIN PORN ON THAT!....

or what about... some... not an ipod,... not an iphone... but some iSHOES!!!

OKAY... I KNOW.. THATS A BIT FAR FETCHED BUT WHAT ABOUT.....

a date with STACY DASH (i know u got my back right PUDDIN?)

JUS GIMME 3 AND A HALF MINUTES. MAYBE EVEN FO'!...

im obviously bored, right!

they say... "puff puff PASS!!!"

2008-01-09T10:16:00.000-08:00

I was tagged by:
STILL POCAHONTAZ

A) Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
B) Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.
C) Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
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#1... i can actually fly a small plane, no seriously i really can... i took a class/course over the summer when i was in between sophomore and junior year in high school... there was a program for like 10 inner city kids to do it... and i was chosen, we took classes like 8 hours a day and then we actually got to fly a real air plane every day for an allotted amount of time (with an instructor of course)... they were the small CESSNA and PIPER air planes. the look like this:

#2... i have a terrible habit of crackin my knuckles... not just my knuckles tho... like every joint on every finger... even my toes sometimes... lmao!

#3... I've seriously contemplated being a male giggalo, more than once!

#4... no matter how hard i try, i cant for the life of me complete a RUBIK'S CUBE... unless of course i take the stickers off and do it, who smart now?...
look @ this shit:

a damn 3 year old can do it!

4real... with his feet... cmon!

someone gave me 1 this morning... i refuse to open it... cuz i swear i'll break that shit if i get pissed off emough!... but its sitting on my computer haunting me... what should i do?

#5... My Myspace addiction has been replaced by BLOGGING with u guys... *(shakes head)*... its its like giving up CRACK for HEROINE!

#6... i keep Crystals Hot Sauce at my desk... never know when u might need it.

#7... i wish i could drink JAMBA JUICE everyday.

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I'm only tagging: (click the pic)

SMITTY'S SOLILOQUY

CAP CITY

MS. BEHAVING

MR. UNDERHILL

they say... "OUT wit the OLD & IN wit the NEW"

2008-01-03T18:42:00.000-08:00

THESE ARE MY 1ST'S OF 2008...

1. Who was the first person you talked to in 08?
ALL FRIENDS AND FAM THAT WAS AROUND ME @ THE MOMENT.

2. The first person you hugged?
AUNTY ROBBIN... aka... DUCHESS

3. The first person you called?
I CALLED MY MOM 1ST

4. The first person you texted?
LIL' PAM... lol

5. The first thing you drank?
U MEAN CONTINUED TO DRINK?... BELVI & SOME CHAM-PAG-NE'

6. The first person that called you?
LOL... WOOOOW... AFTER JUST CHECKIN MY PHONE... MY EX WAS THE 1ST PERSON TO CALL ME... THATS ODD SEEING AS I HAVENT TALKED TO HER ON THE PHONE IN HELLLLLLA LONG!

7. The first person that texted you?
MY CUZIN PHE'!

8. Have you talked to all of your BLOG BUDDIES yet?
NO TEXT MS. PUDDIN THO!

*in reference to the pic... ur such a wierdo*

9. Any of them?
NAH... I DONT HAVE THEIR #'S ANYWAY

10. Who was the 1st person to hang up on you?
NOBODY... i dont play the shit...lol

11. What was the first thing you watched on TV?
MARTIN SEASON 3 DVD!... that fools retarded!

12. Who was the first person you thought of?
HER!

13. What was the first thing you ate?
AWWW MAN... MY AINTY ROBIN MADE SOME BLACK EYE PEAS & RICE, FRIED CHICKEN, BBQ RIBS, POTATO SALAD, DEVILED EGGS, AND SOME MO' SH!T.

14. What where you wearing at midnight?
REGULAR CLOTHES NOTHIN FANCY!

15. First kiss?
I'LL JUST CALL HER LIPS!

16. First fight?
NADDA... LETS SEE HOW LONG THAT LASTS!

*who want it???*

17. First laugh?
AT ALL OF OUR DRUNK ASSES PLAYIN KINGS CUP (drinking game)

18. First person you said 'I love you' to?
MY MOM

19. First stupid thing you did?
ME STUPID STUFF PSSHHHT! yea right... lmao!

20. First thing you bought?
HMMMM... I DUNNO... PROLLY SOME GATORADE

the anti-hang over drink!

im wish everyone in my blog-world a prosperous 08'!

they say... "It's the REASON for the SEASONS"

2008-01-03T13:09:00.000-08:00

Well my X-MAS was laid back... helped moms cook this year since shes gettin older, her and my brother(18 yrs old) got in to a squabble the week prior too so he left and stayed with my grandmother which in turn made my mother basically say F*ck and she didnt get him shit...

so i had to play good son and visit with her a few days... clean his dirty ass room (*shaking head*)... my favorite part of any holiday is the food so i was happy... moms made: (in no specific order)

1... cornish hens
2... roast beef (that shit was helllla good, vegetarians go to hell...lol)
3... yams
4... mac & cheese
5... potato salad
........... i was gone put a pic of potato salad here but look at m,y choices... helll naw... it didnt look nothin like that hot mess in a bowl on nonna them pics CLICK HERE

6... garlic butter crab legs... (i know it hella doesnt go but moms had the craving to make it, but it was hella good too)
7... sweet potato pie... i woulda wrestled grandma to the floor for the last piece i swear i would have!

8... german chocolate cake (ughhh... what is that on the top of the cake? oatmeal?...lmao

i got slapped upside the head for sayin that at the dinner table)

9... black eyed peas... i sware fo' lowd *shakin head* rediculously good (i know im greedy hahaha!)

Theres more i just cant think know besides im sure drooling on this keyboard will cost the company money.

I decided not to get that many people nothin this x-mas... i just got the kids hella stuff...

my 2 yr. old god daughter...

and my 6 year old cuzin

I got the all kinds of toys, pajamas, and clothes... so the kids were my REASON FOR THE SEASONS!

PEACE OUT

they say... "the AWARD goes to..."

2007-12-15T10:42:00.000-08:00

AND THE AWARDS FOR 2007 GO TO...

1) DRINKING BUDDY OF THE YEAR?
The Smitty's

2) SMOKIN BUDDY OF THE YEAR
dont smoke but if i did it would be Tay, Gotti, & Josh

3) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend)
The Smitty's

4) NEWCOMER AWARD - COOLEST NEWEST FRIEND?
Tiffany J.

5) HIGH POINT OF THE YEAR?
My 25 bday!

6) LOW POINT OF THE YEAR?
getting over her and movin out of 201

7) BEST HOLIDAY?
Thanksgiving

8) YOUR SONG FOR 2007?
Kanye- Cant tell me nothin!

9) MOVIE FOR 2007?
300

10) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH?
nobody!

11) BEST RELATIONSHIP?
she knows!

12) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN
nothin decided not to dress this year... last year i was flava flav!... lmao... look at Ms. Puddin

13) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
PF Changs... i love that shit

14) KISS OF THE YEAR?
her sexy ass

15) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
to get my financial game right

16) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
almost gettin left in frisco (san francisco) during a party bus for justins bday!

17) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
Boondocks

18) MOST LOYAL FRIEND?
Mike & Z-A (the smitty's)... justin... Tiffany J... Doug

19) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
no longer dating her, and being more serious, and my new job that i love!

20) BIGGEST DOUCHEBAG AWARD?
(even though it was my fault)... "N" for fightin on my boys bday! (women are crazy)

21) NEW YEAR RESOLUTION?
To be even better!

they say... "hard WORK PAYS off"

2007-12-14T18:57:00.000-08:00

WOW!... my job gave everybody X-mas cards 2day... i opened it and a $100 bill fell out... i mean we dont technically get bonuses... so im like HELL YEA!... I'll say it again... I LOVE MY JOB!

*[side bar]*... LMFAO!... one of my co-workers said, "wouldnt it be fucked up if they charged everybody $100 at the door to get into our mandatory X-mas party"... haaaaahahaha!

they say... if YOU wanna know somethin', then ASK!

2007-12-13T19:16:00.000-08:00

And although that is so true... some shit should be left alone!... or should it???...

I went on a date yesterday night to see American Gangster... yess I know I'm hella late... yea yea yea!... see my previous post..... they say... "ART imitates LIFE"

Anywho b4 the movie, we're out eating and choppin it up about whatever... when this chick goes, "soooo what's ur fantasy"... now I dunno about u but I'm game for this conversation but wait a minute ma'... u don't even know me like that... but hey its 2007 and women go for what they want so "whatever" I answer and I ask the same question in return, I think she answered the way she did based on my answer...

[Side bar:] maybe its one of those, lemme ask him b4 he asks me typa things

The conversation goes on for another 10 minutes, we are no longer talking about the fantasy thing anymore when she busts out with, Do you have any GAY fantasies????????????........ hmmmmm... I'm lookin @ this chick cuz I'm thinkin, 'I seen her lips movin but I know she didn't just ask me that shit'

After I loudly exclaim, HELL NAW, WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THAT?... WHAT KINDA NI**AS YOU HANG AROUND?... she starts laughin' and im like, "Do you always asks guys that"... she says, "it was just a question"... so i ask her what if a guy (certainly NOT me) says, "yes"... and she says, "then I'll get up and leave"... so at this point im laughing... i kept bringin that wierd ass shit up all night tho!...

Afterwards when i thought about it I had to ask myself; i know she didnt look @ me and think i was a fun-boy cuz i dont play around like that NO SIRRRR!...

OR...

Is society that far gone that women have to ask shit like this because of these undercover fruit-cakes?... and shortly after i answered my own question with................ YES!!!, it is!...

this shit is sad!...

they say... "ART imitates LIFE"

2007-12-13T18:40:00.000-08:00

okay! 1st let apologize for being the last mothaf*cka on the planet to see American Gangster...

See what had happened was... i wanted to see it in the theater, and me and a certain some1 said we'd see it 2gether (wont fall for that again...lol) but they seen it and i didnt want to go with some1 who seen it already... outside of that i gotta give it to the bootleggers of the world for having the movie a monthe b4 it came out in the theaters... so i had a hell of a time avoiding seein it at every fuckin bodies house... BUT none-the-less i paid my good money to go see it...

NOW... on to the question @ hand... am i the only 1 that watches movie of the nature and then for a split second want/think about doin some illegal shit!

i was lookin @ all the MONEY in the movie like lemme jus get a handful and id be happy...

if u've ever felt like this what movie were u watching, and what were u thinkin?

they say... "im like a KID in a CANDY STORE"

2007-11-30T15:07:00.000-08:00

Dont know about places out side the bay area... but we got this place called FRY'S ELECTRONICS and its simply a Toys-R-Us for adults...

*odd looking i know*

But inside is flat screens t.v.'s(im still memorized @ the 101 inch screen)... computers... video games... cell phones... radios... speakers.... cd's... dvd's (YES, PORN TOO!!!)... and everything else that has to do with technology...

i just went during lunch and spent 3 times what i planned... i swear i cant just walk in there without buying SOMETHIN'...

so question... what stores do it 4 u guys?... what store do u go in and just lose your mind?

they say... "you can't have the GOOD, without the BAD!"

2007-11-20T16:09:00.000-08:00

`well ive been havin' good days alot lately.. so i guess i was due... my day started goin bad as soon as the clock struck 12:00...

heres how it played out...

Ok... I'll give u a brief run down...

This started last night after mid night...
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12:15... I get in the house... and what do u know all of sudden im no longer sleepy

1:00... still up

2:00... still up

3:00... still up (tossin & turnin)

4:00... still up (tossin & turnin)... and then finally fell asleep (which is a bunch of BS cuz of all people, I can always fall asleep... i swear im slightly narcoleptic)

5:45... the worst cramp in my calf ive ever had in my life... oh god... it was 1 of those u cant even stop if u like grab it... it was pain full... I actually had 2 get up and put my foot on the kitchen floor to get it to stop (home remedy)... never had 1 like that before... my calf is still sore!

9:27... wake up (to hella kids who have no school makin hella noise and runnin around, NO their not mines... im staying w/ fam. far a few weeks)... mind u I have to be to work @ 10:00... I was supposed to wake up @ 7:30...

I was so late already I didn’t even rush... mike uncle said he'd take me to work... so im like coo... I wont be too late so I waited around 4 him... only to find out he has something he 4got he had 2 do... so he drops me off @ the bus @ 11:05... and guess what (yep u got it I missed the bus by 10 minutes)

11:25... 180 bus leaves to san jose

12:08... bus arrives... and of course the lightrail is pulling off as the bus is pulling up...

12:16... lightrail comes...

12:31... I arrive @ work, thinking "okay lemme get to work lunch is about to start"

12:34... get a phone to test... battery is dead... and it requires a special 1 of a kind (in the galaxy) charger that nobody can find... but my job is to locate it...

12:49... locate charger and get to work for 11 minutes until lunch time... sigh!

BUT ITS NOTHIN I'LL JUST MAKE IT UP DURING OVERTIME!... ;0)

Soooooooooooooooo... how was ur day???

they say... "you REAP what you SOW"

2007-11-19T15:24:00.000-08:00

Annnnnnd I'VE BEEN SOWING ALOT!...

Well in my case im writing about something positive and not somethin i did commin back to bite me in the ass...

last week i worked about 60 hours give or take (i'll know for sure when i get paid) and im actuall kinda juiced(thats excited for the slang impaired) because i didnt mind working not 1 minute of that overtime and the shit added up nicely...

not to mention i make grip off that time-and-a-half wage... this shit is perfect timing cuz im in the process of moving, gettin my credit & finances under control, sticking to my budget, and saving... my new motto is... "if i aint savin' $500 a month, i aint doin shit"... yea its a big goal but i manage it...

tho' im excited about gettin this overtime pay... i have a question for anyone who has any input... how bad can alot of overtime turnout to br come TAX TIME?????... the thought of taxes scares the shit outta me... i look @ that the same as gettin robbed at gun point...

i mean its a guy i dont know taking money from me and i have no say so in the matter... and if i refuse he has the ability to fuck my future up... lmao... 4real tho!... that shit is scary!...
it more like this in my dreams...... hahaha

well gotta get back to work... dutie calls... got more OT 2nite!

they say... "I'm under ATTACK!!!"

2007-11-14T19:20:00.000-08:00

Ive been attacked by the homie, STILL_POCAHONTAZ...

Four things I like to cook
1. Chicken or Seafood Fettuccine
2. Stuffed Bell Peppers
3. Chicken over rice (chicken... go figure right)
4. Spaghetti (mines is BOMB!!!)

Four qualities I love in people
1. Humor
2. Respect
3. Ambition (for something in ur life)
4. Love for Life

Four places I have been
1. Washington D.C.
2. Las Vegas
3. Chicago
4. Phillie

Four thing in my bedroom
1. Bed
2. Wardrobe
3. T.V.
4. A black woman (hahahaha... sometimes!)... its a good look with my room!

Four dirty words I like
1. Fuck (usually when im pissed or bein funny)
2. Shit (this is such a convenient word)
3. Muh-fukka (pronounced jus like that... dont use it often but i like it)
4. Pu$$y (when a woman says it... lmao... 4real that just does it 4 me)

Four people I’m taggin'.... SMITTY, MR. UNDERHILL, annnnnnd YAZMAR,

they say... "Ur job is like ur 2nd home"

2007-11-07T15:12:00.000-08:00

Lemme start by saying I LUV MY NEW JOB...

okay so like about a year ago, i seen a posting to be a video game tester... now honestly i didnt know what all it was about and didnt too much care...
VIDEO GAMES + GETTING PAID TO PLAY EM' = *KOOL-AID SMILE*...

So i applied and got no call back what so ever... not even an interview... so like about 3 months ago i see the posting agin but this time its thru a staffing agency... so i apply and meet the staffin agency people... and they say "WE'LL GIVE U A CALL"... after about 2 weeks i gave up on that and kept job searching... a full month went by when i got a call from an odd #... i answered and they told me i was chose for a position @ Namco... and im hella juiced...

I started October 1st... and granted its just been a lil' over a month, i cant say a single negative thing about my job!... i mean CMON' PEOPLE... I play video games!

My branch of the company ONLY deals with cell phone games... so if u've ever had... PAC-MAN, MS. PAC-MAN, SUPER PAC-MAN, GALAGA, POPEYE, ETC. on ur cell phone it came from us and it pretty much was tested by some1 in this room (i would imagine only on the westcoast, but im not 100% sure)

Before this job most of my jobs were security which i refuse to go back 2 if i have any say so in it... so i had 2 wear a uniform, be bothered with assholes, and answer to an asshole with authority... BUT........................

NOW... i wear what ever i want to work... except for sandals and shorts... and u can wear shorts on fridays if u wish to... i get paid more than my previous jobs... the have breakfast for us every friday... we get a free hour every friday to do whatever u want, u can either take a 2 hour lunch or get off an hour early... when they offer overtime they buy u dinner (applebees, red robin, pizza, etc)... AND PEOPLE PLEASE DONT FORGET... I PLAY VIDEO GAMES!

honestly i do have shit i have to do and i dont JUST play video games but i couldnt be happier when i wake up in the morning!...

PEEEEACE OUUTTTT!... or should i say...

they say... "dont CHEAT yaself, TREAT yaself"

2007-11-05T13:55:00.000-08:00

I attended a wedding on Saturday... prior to, i already knew i wanted to wear a suit but there was no way i was wearing my same-ol lame ass black suit. so for the last 3 weeks i've been keepin' my eyes open for suits... well i came across this gray SEAN JOHN suit and it was a wrap i was on some crazy woman type "i gotta have it type shit"...

Annnnnnnd then i looked at the price tag!

okay it wasnt that much but its more than i've ever paid for an article of clothing at one time!

the suit was $500 (but of course i payed slightly less 400 + the shoes)... might not be alot to some of u ballin bloggers but thats crazy to me... now god bless the fact that i have these 2 new jobs and i was even able to consider doin this... but after i bought this shit i felt guilty and couldnt figure out why?... and still cant!

but shit once i put the motha-f*cka on (U SHOULDA SEEN IT!)... i was fly as a pelican and fresh as a manikin... (at least thats how i felt anyway)...

it made me really like the color gray... and i had the shoes to match and i pretty much thought i was the shit... now if i can just find 499 more reasons to wear this shit again maybe i wont feel so funny about it...

I am officially admitting i have a retail problem...

HI MY NAME IS MR. SWEETWYNE...
hi Mr. Sweetwyne...
AND IM A SHOP-AHOLIC

they say... "SEX, is just a 3 letter word!"

2007-11-02T02:56:00.000-07:00

I NEVER KNEW WHAT GREAT SEX WAS UNTIL I..................................

Until i found out 1st hand men can have multiple orgasms!

damn just thinkin bout it...

they say... "sharing is caring" (TAGGED!)

2007-11-01T01:30:00.000-07:00

So im gonna' pass this on since Ms. FBP tagged me...

The rules of the game are:

A). Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog...

B). Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself...

C). Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs...

D). Let each person know that they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

#1... I play video games for a living! (ha ha, my jobs better than urrrrrrrrrrrrrs!)

#2... My family has some wierd birth pattern goin on that landed on me... im 25... my mothers 50... my grandmothers 75... and my great-grandmother is 100!!! (yes she's still alive, amazing huh?)

#3... I hate when women say, "we need to talk!"... id rather break dance on broken glass... lol!

#4... I dont believe in dinner without meat... vegetarians are wierdos!

#5... I find feet FUCKING DISGUSTING... how do men suck toes... omg im gettin light headed thinkin bout it... ughhh!

#6... I often ponder on what would happen to the world if the internet (as a whole) just crashed forever one day... scary huh! (bloggers would actually have to do real life stuff)

#7... I'm 25 and have yet to step foot inside of a strip club... sad but true!... some1 help me!

I dont have hardly any blog-homies so I'm tagging:
Smitty's Soliloquy... Mr. Underhill... STILL_POCAHONTAZ

they say... "spare the ROD and spoil the CHILD"

2007-10-26T18:07:00.000-07:00

Okay so 2day(friday) I had a 2hour lunch(I love my new job) so every Friday I run all my errands during that time…

2day I left work, went to get movie tickets for later this weekend, then to pay my bill at the gym, to pick up my dry cleaning, and the to the bank to handle some business…

I had my dry cleaning over my shoulder as I walked in so I laid it down on this bench that they have in the bank when I noticed some bad ass little kid goin crazy nearby… so I walk away fill out my deposit slip and when im done I just look at this little demon child… he’s just yellin for no reason at the top of his lungs… im lookin around like who’s child/pet is this… no sign or gesture from anyone… so then this kid jumps on the waiting benches and he’s running and jumping around when the woman in front of me who had a baby over her shoulder yell “joe get from down there” and im thinkin’ ohhhhhhh! Ur the non parent of the metal mouth heathen, I say that cuz when she said that he looked her in the eye and gave this “problem child”… “gremlin”… “grinch” style grin and revealed his little silver teeth as he proceeded to run and jump around…

Im keeping my eye on him cuz as soon as he jumps on my clothes I just got out of the cleaners he’s getting flashed on and I dare his parent to say somethin’… so he musta’ read my mind cuz he went from there to the entrance area and was walking along this ledge until an employee told him he to get down and go to his mother… he nonchalantly walked thru the whole bank to the other side and was hanging on these stairs like a monkey… so now im just lookin’ at the mother at the mom thinking, “at what point do u jus say fuck it he can do what he wants even tho’ he’s like 4 years old”

*shaking head*… that was a heavy dose of birth control!

*thinking* my ass woulda been WHOOPED in front of everybody in there, and whoever woulda tried to intervene woulda felt the wrath too…

PEOPLE PLEASE START WHOOPIN YO KIDS ASSES AGAIN… PLEEEEAAAASE!

they say... "confidence + confidence = arrogance" PT. 1 (Kanye West )

2007-09-08T14:44:00.001-07:00

"wit so much personality, what do u want from me?............ I ca' be by myself & enjoy the company"

-Kanye West

Is arrogance a bad thing???... what do u say?... I say it's not THAT bad!

Honestly when i first started noticing the shit this fool did i was like, "who this ni**a think he is"... but recently this dude has been crackin' me the fuck up!... I mean he takes cockiness to a whole notha' level and I LOVE THIS SHIT!
I don't blame the guy he's a top notch producer who is also a beast on the mic and he knows it!

I mean if u honestly in ur heart feel ur at a certain point financially, career wise, socially, sexually, intellectually, etc. is it OK to voice that or walk with that "I KNOW I AM" swagger?... with that said i don't condone looking down on other people or being disrespectful toward anyone or thing but you should be able to be confident in ur positive aspects even if sometimes its seen as overly confident.

By definition, confidence is belief in oneself and one's powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance
ANNNNNNND...
Arrogance is an offensive display of superiority or self-importance; overbearing pride.

So is it safe to say, if you are in fact superior(higher in rank) than another person(s) in certain areas it IS ok to act accordingly... i know a few people who say shit like, "i cant stand that arrogant ass moth-f@!*a" and at that very moment i wonder is that the inferior person that is considered lower than the "arrogant" asshole?... I mean the world needs balance if everyone were arrogant, there would be no such thing as arrogant and it would be the norm.

I feel like confidence is something every single person on the planet has in at least one area of their life... u might be confident that you can smoke 100 cigarettes in a day, that you are the most talented monopoly player in the history of ever, that ur the best drunk driver, or you may be confident in something as simple as the best PRODUCER at this present time(hence Mr. West).

What im saying is once you reach a certain level of confidence its seen as arrogance... but why?... and SO FUCKIN' WHAT!... be proud of what you have, what u can do, and more importantly WHAT/WHO YOU ARE!

I've been called arrogant many times(or conceited, take ur pick) and at first i would fight the accusation but it came to the point where people are gonna believe what they want to believe anyway and thats where the attitude derived from... that transformed into a part of my persona that shows at certain times when I'm "feelin' myself"(and i don't mean drunk...lol)... and now i don't even bother explaining myself i just enjoy the over confidant remarks from my "inferior haters".

I feel like people should flaunt their positive aspects...

(TO BE CONTINUED...)

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Kanye is the poster-boy for this persona with quotes like:

- "George Bush doesn't care about black people""(15 seconds left on video #1)

and more recently:

- "I wanna' do music cuz i know people need my music, people need Kanye West albums"(2:35 left on video #2)

- "They feel like, Yo... You know he's got a God complex cuz he said if they wrote the Bible again he would be in it... DUHHHH! YEA I WOULD BE IN IT!..." (1:11 left on video #2)

- "I'm high up on the line u ca get behind me/ but my head so big u cant sit behind me"( 1:53 left on video #3)

- "IF I DONT WIN, THE AWARD SHOW LOSES! CREDIBILITY!"(just watch the whole video... lmao!)
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VIDEO #1

VIDEO #2

VIDEO #3

VIDEO #4

they say... "media rots ur brain"...

2007-09-06T10:47:00.001-07:00

lately ive had a random ass thinking pattern about the crap ive been watching and listening to, for instance...

Let me start with the talk of the summer (or @ least the end of the summer)... KANYE vs. 50... aka MR. "you cant tell me nothin" vs. MR. "i get money"...
both albums drop on Sept. 11th (whats with rapperS droppin albums on that date???)... personally i think its a hoax to boost record sales... but all-in-all beyond the publicity stunts imma' cop that KANYE because i feel it'll be a better variety of music than "50" and his same-ass-songs on every album scheme. Might i add i already have both the albums jus havent had time to really listen 2 em in comparison!

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Okay moving on to more important shit... the controversy over the "READ A BOOK" video being aired on BET...

I cant believe black people are actually getting up the nerves to speak out against this... i mean cmon' are u FUCKING serious???.........

U fuckin people mean to tell me that you'll watch the SERIOUSNESS of women shakin their asses (which i must admit i guiltily enjoy,) rappers promoting alchohol and jewelry above more important things, and mothafuckas in general coonin and actin a foo'!.......... FOR INSTANCE "SUPER MANNNN THAT HOE" (but i'll get back to that later...lmao... OMG)
These people are borderline insane... so the video "a bay bay"... "i get money"... "crank that soulja boy"... ETC. are that much different than this... and this actually has a positive yet SATIRICAL message!... what this is saying TO ME issssss that parent don't mind if its REAL ignorance but if it's FAKE cartoon ignorance it's a problem?.... WOOOOOW... TALK ABOUT A REALITY CHECK!!!

[side note: as a fellow black man i should'nt say this but, I cant belive that "uncle tom" ass Tony Harris(African-American cnn newscaster)]
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Now back to.....
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"CRANK THAT SOULJA BOY" ...&... "SUPER MANNNN THAT HOE"...

Is it?... or Is it NOT?... more than hilarious that this dance is takin the club scene by storm...

*I CANT FRONT THE BEAT DOES SLAP THO!*

I kid u not a home girl of mines said she went to club in the BAY AREA (GEOFFREY'S 1ST SATURDAY'S to be exact) and they had to turn the song off because everybody on the 2nd floor was doing the dance and it felt like the floor was gonna cave in.... [crackin up laughing]...

I'll admit I don't know how accurate that statement was but i could only imagine... DONT GET ME WRONG!... I'm not tranna' hate on the song or the video... but why are grown ass people(i refuse to say adults) doin this 07' hokey pokey in a club with they good clothes on... but hey all & all i'd rather that then somebody shootin' up the spot.

ON 2ND THOUGH.... NAHHHH FUCK THAT... THAT SHIT IS IGNORANT!!!!!!!! (lmao)
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Moving right along... QUESTION???..........................

WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF CRACK IS SHAQ'S WIFE SMOKIN'???... (i dont use this word when speakin of women especially my sistas... BUT...) IS THIS BITCH CRAZY!?...

[DISCLAIMER: im not sure if this is true or not... could be 100% wrong but this is what i heard/read...]

It was said that Shaq's wife was messin around with the personal trainer that Shaq hired and payed for her to have... this 27 year old Cuban cat... hahahaha... lmao!... hella shady!... i hope she didnt realy cheat on the brother tho.

Besides she gonna be paid either way, least just say she DID cheat... this means she wont get alimony... BUT... and there is big BUT (buffie the body size butt...lol) cuz she got 4 kids by ol' boy and she gone get close $20 or $30 thousand a month per child.... so you do the MATH!

i guess... THE INSTITUTION OF MARRIAGE AIN'T WHAT IT USED TO BE!

READ THE ARTICLE FOR YOURSELF (click here)
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The next 1 is more of a personal thing... so i was in L.A. this weekend and while in the car riding around L.A. the radio was playing (i always listen to a little radio when im outta town to see what playin')... anywho this commercial came on late sunday night i died laughin.... it was an advertisement for "RENT-A-WHEEL"... YESSSS i said RENT.... A.... WHEEL!... i was like r u fuckin kidding me... this place rents out rims & tires... i mean if u cant afford RIMS of all things then u dont really need em that bad!!!
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NOW THATS GANGSTA!

NOVEMBER 2ND to be exact "American Gangster" comes out and im already juiced.... heres the all-star line up... Denzel, Russel Crowe, Cuba Gooding Jr.(maybe he can redeem his sell-out career), Common, T.I., and RZA...

People go see this shit... i looks like its gone be the shit annnnd its based on a true story!... UV BEEN WEEL INFORMED!

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OKAY!... im done... until next time this my randomness... PEEEAACE!

they say... "music soothes the soul"

2007-08-18T17:26:00.000-07:00

Last night I fell in love... AGAIN!...

I fell in love, and a big reason why was because this time reminded me of the very 1st time I fell in love... although I mainly used 2 senses to capture the essence of this feeling... it was long waited and much needed... and perfect timing!

I went to a lounge last night where they have local artists... usually a few singers... possibly a rapper or two... maybe some groups... but last night... I was mesmerized...

The 1st performance was an Oakland singer by the name "Brianna" aka "Bri"... nice lil petite cutie with a nice voice... reminded me of a Kiesha Cole type of singer... the 2nd performer was also a singer but a lot more soulful, to put it in perspective she sang a Jill Scott song... and did a damn good job if I might add... they both had etremely short sets... so I was like damn they must not have many performances 2night...

At this point I was gonna go across the street to a club and do what I do... 2 of my boys from the east bay were hella like lets go over there... so when I was about 2 consider... I notice there is a band setting up... so enjoying live music like I do... I say "I wanna watch a lil bit of this to see what's up with this band"...

After about 20 minuts of setting up... this little ass stage has a DRUMMER, a KEYBOARDIST with 2 keyboards, a GUITARIST(wierd lookin dude...hahaha), a PERCUSSIONIST with the bongos and some maraca style instruments, a BASS PLAYER with an upright standing bass(one of my favorite sounds), and there's another keyboard set-up in front of everything... so I'm highly interested because the guys setting up their equipment jus give me the perception there's gonna be some HIP-HOP type of stuff goin on...

And it starts... an odd looking light skin dude with a clean ass purple and silver hoody walks on the stage as the bass player is playing what sounds like a classical music riff... and it speeds up as he plays it then the guitarist joins in and then to add to the experience I notice a SAXAPHONIST and TRUMPET PLAYER as they added their spark to this escalating music... then the guy in the purple hoody sits down and starts playing the shit out of his piano/keyboard... I mean he was beast on the keys and then the drummer joins in and this shit is rediculous... in my head I'm like "I aint goin no fuckin where til this shit is over"...

After they play this clean ass classical, hip hop infused routine the guy on the keyboard starts rapping... and the shit is right up my ally cuz its what I like to call REAL HIP-HOP!...

The performers name was KEV CHOICE(sorry didn't catch the bands name)... honestly (after careful evaluation) that was the best musical performance I've ever seen... the performer said him and his band had just come back off of tour with LAUREN HILL...

The performance continued with each song leading into the next... with solo's by some band members mixed in... they also mixed some classic west coast rap instrumentals into their set which was tight as hell...

I honestly don't think that lounge will see a much better performance than that... but then again I never would have thought I would see that one! (I LOVE HIP-HOP)

LAST NIGHT... I FELL BACK IN LOVE WITH MUSIC!!!!!

they say... "choose your battles wisely"...

2007-08-03T12:18:00.001-07:00

*for the short brief version scroll down to the red bold type!*

okay!... so last night me and my boy SMITTY fot into what would be considered a fight but i beg to differ... lemme start from the top!

We go to this event that our homegirl is throwing... and its coo' and laid back... after it was over we lingered around a bit and then went outside and socialized for a while... eventually Me and SMITTY get in the car and he's like u gotta make any stops, im like yea LETS GO TO JACK IN THE CRACK... so we get there and the homegirl LA-LA is like im finna come in there so we like coo'... as im sayin that my order is ready so i get my shit and head to the door....

As soon as we walk out we see LA-LA and we like wus good(for any of you familiar wit the geography of this area, we were by the italian place on the corner)... no sooner we see her these two fuckin dudes start makin' comments from a short distance like:

"ay mama"

"come holla @ ya boy"

"im tranna see wus good"

...now let me clarify LA-LA is indeed our homegirl but off top these mufukkas didnt know that shit... so im already light-weight agitated cuz what if one of us was her dude or her fuckin husband for that matter... but anyway...

the dudes get close enough to have a civilized conversation(but u can forget about that shit cuz it aint gon' happen!)... and the one main dude some husky 240 lb ni66a starts talkin hella slick so in my head im like its just a matter of time before this foo' say somethin disrespectful... so he proceeds to try and pop @ LA-LA and she like im coo' can i jus talk to my homeboys and this ni66a is steady sayin hella shit...

so then this ignorant bastard pulls out some crumbled up ass money and throws it on the ground talkin bout is it a money thing or what... so me, SMITTY, & LA-LA look down and its a $10 bill... a $5 bill... and a $1 bill... simple arithmetic equals that to $16 TOTAL(whooopty-fuckin-doo)... so we look @ each other a start laughin'... and SMITTY say well let me hold somethin!...lmao...

START HERE FOR THE INTERESTING SHORT VERSION OF WHAT HAPPENED

SO THIS IS WHERE THE SHIT ESCALATES... after being shot down the husky dude is still pushin the issue... im lookin at em muggin hella hard cuz he was jus being a fuckin asshole... so the lil lightskin foo wit em' looks @ me like r u coo' and im like yea ARE YOU!???...

so then the husky dude goes... MAAAAN YOU A HOOKER!!!... so im like you gon' be disrespectful like that... i looked @ his boy and said u need to get this ni66a and he says "thats a grown ass man"... AIIIIGHT I CAN RESPECT THAT!...

so i take off my shirt cuz im passed pissed now... cuz im takin the shit personal cuz of the fact he felt it coo to test my manhood by disrespectin her and us and think nothin is gon' happen... so LA-LA's doin the dont fight tranna hold me back thing which aint gon' work cuz i had my mind made up that it was gon' be a fight before i left that fuckin area... MIND YOU: nice-guy-SMITTY is jus relaxed as always and laughin but shit i know he got my back... so hes like jus drop it blood... i calm down like a good 8%... and we get to the car which is still on that same corner and i sit in the car facing the street with the door open and LA-LA stands in front of me with her back to me and SMITTY is leaning against the open door... and the this husky fucka says...

BITCH I SHOULD KICK YOU... and before he got it out his mouth he had rushed and kicked her... BUT... before he got his leg all back to the ground SMITTY bombs on the ni66a and its a wrap... dude is on his back(that part was funny as SHIT after the fact)... so i jump out the car and start gettin on husky dudes head hell tough... and his potna is kinda jus standin there but fuck that ur guilty by association so i start takin off on him too... so im back and forth simultaneously on these to lame ass ni66as... and then the big dude finally squares up and here comes SMITTY out of nowhere and pushed the husky dude hella hard and he falls again... so @ this point dude is squarin up dont even wanna fight so he was tranna spit on us and shit LIKE A LIL BITCH!.... so that shit is about over and this silly bastard runs up and punches the window hella hard and it didnt brake SO thats when SMITTY finally gets pissed and is like if he break this window im goin to jail cuz IMMA FUCK HIM UP!... so we kill the shit and bounce, but not before LA-LA finds the one of the dudes phone... and that my friends concludes last nights ordeal...

I HATE THE FACT THAT EVERYBODY WANNA BE HARD... WTF!!! IS THAT SHIT ABOUT... STARTIN SHIT DONT VALIDATE YO MANHOOD... IF DRINKIN MAKES U THINK UR THE FUCKIN HULK... QUIT FUCKIN DRINKIN CUZ MOST NI**AS AINT TRANNA FIGHT U... THEYD RATHER KILL U AND GET THE OVER WIT... MUFFAKAS NEED TO CHILL OUT!

they say... "all news, aint good news"

2007-08-02T21:51:00.000-07:00

I had questions... and i felt i really needed answers!

1ST & FOREMOST... i was kinda peeved @ the fact that this person was too "BUSY" to talk for 10 minutes, shit maybe less depending on if i understand what shes sayin... i like to think im kinda foward so as a MAN when i feel somethin is important i want to talk about it face to face... *that was quickly declined upon request*... ok on with the blog!

The person im highly interested in had me wonderin what our situation was becasue we fa sho' wasnt the same as we were in the past(not even close)... but i kinda wanted to know what the deal was... soooo I ASKED!...

and long story short the answer was what i hoped it wasnt but not completely...

I wanted to know EXACTLY where we stood... and her answer was that we were friends... ok duhhhh im not a fuckin retard i know we're friends, so i told her i didnt want her to get it confused like we were friends like im friends wit my platonic play sister and homegirls, and whaddayaknow thats what she was talkin about... in my head im like what in the hell would make u think that?...(mind u i asked her to be my woman a month prior to this text talk)

so she goes on to say that were obviously not on the same page... and i agree... she says she doesnt want to be in a relationship, and shit i can feel that cuz ive felt like that for a while... even now i dont want to be in a relationship, I WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER, theres a big difference! i mean i can get a girlfriend or 2 or 3 or 4(u get the point...lol) but im not interested in being wit any other chick!...

so im like would dating be too much and she says yes... now this caught me off guard because i had no clue and im lookin at the situation like "damn she really wants to be like my homie" so... i go on to ask would it be wise to drop this whole ordeal of askin how she feels and she like "right now, Maybe" which in laymans terms means HELL YEA, BUT I DONT WANNA SAY IT!...

So after that im jus like i guess i'll keep her as a close friend... i was kinda keep dating to a minimum and not get too involved with anyone else... but what the fuck for, i feel like she's moved on so maybe i should do the samn (yes i know i said this in another blog) but now im like really thinkin thats what i need to do...

now im finna go out and get drunk and turn on the charm im so famous for!... my homegirl said i should just do me and things will fall into place so thats what imma do starting NOW!

(my bad if i sound slightly pissed... i just needed 2 vent... this blog shit is a pretty way release what on ya mind)... THANK MS. P FOR GETTIN ME INTERESTED IN THIS BLOGGIN SHIT!... i owe u a drink(s)!

they say "honesty is the best policy"

2007-07-31T09:34:00.000-07:00

I'm on my way to a job interview as they type this... and I'm just thinking how interviews are BULLSHIT...

Going into it they expect you to lie... they don't really want an honest hard worker, they want a lying bullshitter...lmao

They get u into an office(interrogation style) to interview you and ask u questions like:

Q: Do you think its fare to be late every now and then?

LIE: "no not at all that's unacceptable and should never happen"

TRUTH: "hell yea it is, I think its a crime to be on time... you need to be well rested when u get to work if ur gonna perform at ur best and if that means being late, so be it!"

Q: If you seen a fellow employee doin something unethical such as stealing, do yoiu think you should report it to management?

LIE: "Yes, stealing is a crime no matter how insignificant it may be"

TRUTH: "Rule #1 where I'm from... STOP SNITCHIN' (lmao)... no I aint tellin on nobody.... ummmm unless them gettin fired means I get a raise or promotion"

I can go on but I'm almost to this place for the interview and u know they act like the planet will literally explode if u ur 2 minutes late!

So in conclusion if I ever have the opportunity to interview someone I'm gonna higher the person being real abot it...lmao!... tell you how it went later peeeeaaace!

they say "know what ur getting into, before you get into it"...

2007-07-30T10:46:00.000-07:00

ummmmm... yea so theres this chick that likes me (we'll just call her the "admirer")... she coo' to hang out wit as a "friend".... has great convo as a "friend"... and coo' to party with... as a "friend!"... but she doesnt exactly get the point she asked how i feel about messing with her on serious terms and im like No, Not at all (okay not in those words, im not a total dick)... but i did clearly say it wasnt coo'

She knows alot about the woman that im really feelin cuz shes asked and the shit is obvious... but yet she continues to get pissed and go on these "fuck g-sweet" missions... the thing is its coo' hangin out wit this person but i cant do it no more...

Soooo... i am now officially gonna act like this person doesnt exist... reason being all of the above annnnd the fact that she acted like i was invisible at the club last night... (i mean i dont mind cuz i dont need to be friends with this person but thats hella 3rd grade)

if i would have knew that this person liked me i dont think i would have ever tried to be coo' with her like that... but hey u live and u learn (so they say!...lol)

WELL THATS MY BLOG FOR THIS MORNING!... jus felt like writing... im bored as shit... if think of a good topic i'll be back 2day!

they say "a bad attitude will get you nowhere!"...

2007-07-25T15:12:00.000-07:00

I think its time to revert to the old ME from about 2 years ago when I was super-single with no attachments and no interests...

This ME consists of many women, wild club nights, and no type of commitment what so ever...LMAO!...

Lately I've been tranna wait out a situation 2 see what was goin 2 happen but its getting nowhere and I'm @ the point where I'm like FUCK IT imma jus do the super-single thing again but part of me is like, "nah that's a bad idea"... and I agree but shit it might just be time to meet new people...

I guess if you can't HAVE what you WANT, just get what you like ;0)... until youfind somethin' else you like!

they say... "they know me"

2007-07-18T13:51:00.000-07:00

2days inspiration comes from everybody(not really everybody) speakin' on me... not just in a negative connotation but just all around...

I'll start with a situation from a week or two ago where this chick that i have no affiliation with finds my who, what, and where abouts highly interesting... interesting enough to tell people what she thinks my relationship situations and/or status are, now i could care less about what she said AS LONG AS IT WAS TRUE... but cmon' u know that would be too much like right to just tell the honest to God truth... so this bootsy ass chick says that I tried to talk to her annnnd my play sister... now i'll admit im a flirt but she aint even close to cute or attractive TO ME... and i have never looked @ my play sister like that because she is hella coo' and her and my best friend have always liked each other, so it aint even been close to that level...

so a few days after that what do ya know i go to a club, i get in line, and guess whos standin in right in front of me?... hell yea its this messy ass chick... so i ignore her, jus act like she dont exist... she says "hi" to my boy and i jus act like i dont see her... okay so then we get in the club and shes takin pics of some of our homegirls and as we walk in our homegirls are like take some pics with us... so now thie chick decides 2 say "hi" and wave @ US... so i opt out to once more act like shes invisible... so she goes and snaps 2 pics and we proceed into the club... I HAD HELLA FUN BY THE WAY!

So the next day... word on the street(from HER mouth) is that a girl grabbed her and told her and said, "can you take a picture of me and my man?"... im like WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

now mind you... there were 4 people in the pic... me, my best friend, my homegirl from highschool, and her friend(that i met once b4 but couldnt even remember her name)... so for someone to make that dumb ass comment above would be stupid... but even worse... THE SHIT WAS NEVER SAID... i was standing right next to all 4 people when my homegirl EXACTLY said' "get a picture wit all of us"...

there is more but i dont want to even keep writing on this topic(right now)... so in conclusion:

I understand my life is probably more interesting than some, but if your gonna play private eye @ least say what you seen and heard and that way i'll at least respect u...

"YOU THINK YOU KNOW MW, BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA!"

they say... I "walk around like im a king or somethin'"

2007-07-14T11:38:00.000-07:00

aiiight....... so one of my homegirls always says i am concieted... and when i asked her to explain and/or elaborate... she said aside from thinkin i looked hella good (if i dont think so, who will) I walk around like im a king or something...

my 1st thought (which is usually the one i let pass through because im sure it'll be some smart ass shit) was to say, "I AM A FUCKIN' KING... SO BOW DOWN"... but somethin told me that would be fucked up...LOL... but my real response was "if i didnt act the way i act people wouldnt know me for who i am"

I mean seriously... how am i supposed to act... i mean granted i dont walk around acting like im really a king(cmon' thats rediculous), but shit i DO have a sense of pride and ego... and as far as i see it thats where i get my swagger, style, and demeanor.

everyday i see so many people walkin around with little to no self-esteem... pointing out their flaws while ignoring their positive traits... so im like FUCK THAT... i got enough shit to be happy and hold my head up about, so if that means people will mistake that for me ACTING LIKE IM KING... so be it... im coo' wit that...LMAO!

POINT OF THE POST: let people think what they want(to a certain extent)... but if ur genuinely sincere jus be YOU!

they say "the GOOD die YOUNG"....... R.I.P. Chad Fraga

2007-07-13T11:26:00.000-07:00

"Chad Fraga, 30, of Oakland was fatally shot at 11:41 p.m. Friday in the 9400 block of Plymouth Street."
-SFGate.com

"OAKLAND — A 30-year-old man was found shot to death late Friday night after his car crashed into a parked vehicle in East Oakland, police said.
Police found Chad R. Fraga, 30, of Oakland, at about 11:41 p.m. Friday after his 1992 Buick LeSabre crashed into a parked car in the 9400 block of Plymouth Street.
It was quickly determined he had been shot, and he was pronounced dead at the scene at 11:53 p.m.
Homicide Sgt. Todd Crutchfield said police found evidence indicating the man was shot in the 9200 block of Plymouth but was able to drive the few blocks before crashing.
He said police do not have a motive for the killing"
-insideBayArea.com

And so i find myself burying another brother that ive known all my life over violence... but this time its alot closer to home... Ive know Chad for 16 years... when i moved the 80's he was 1 of the 1st people i met... everybody knew Chad, we called em' "WHITE BOY" cuz he was the only white kid that grew up with us... but it didnt matter because he was one of us... he liked black girls like we did, he had the same struggles we did, he faced all the situations that we did. Honestly throughout the 80's almost everybody i knew was coo' wit Chad, they who he was, and knew that he kept to himself for the most part.

This shit fuckin bothers my soul because even though i no longer have this friend... i feel like the shit is in vein cuz people refuse to learn from situations like this!... this shit is a never spiral of violence thats sucking more than just the victims into it... but the families, children, and friends are also affected as well.

To WHITE BOY i want to say... we all loved you like a brother, and i swear i never thought the next time i seen you it would be my last, but you will be missed... them 89-00 boys shine 4ever!

maaaan, i dont even know what else to write..........................

they say... "timing is everything"

2007-07-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

Lemme start by hypothetically asking........... is it so wrong to want to be in control of most things in your life???

Lately i been goin thru the motions with this dilemma, thats not quite a dilemma... its bothering the shit outta me because i hate not feelin like im in control of situations... and i definately lost control of this one. (or at least it feels like it)

My situation is ive been on my "i wanna be single hype" since my last relationship(of 5 years) and during that time and now i met somebody that I ended up feelin in every aspect... mentally, physically, sexually, and more... we met, we hit it off, and everything took its course but instead of jus committing when the time was right i chose to keep this person at a distance when they wanted (and deserved) to be let into my personal space that I try so hard to guard. Its been well over two years now and i finally want that person to occupy that space...

During this 2 year period this person has voiced the fact that they wanted more from me and I declined to open up and just accept what they have to offer because in my heart and mind the timing wasnt right for me...

... but guess what?... time has a funny way of working because NOW i want that person to occupy that space and the timing isnt right for them(at least thats what i think, and hope is the deal and nothing more)... so with that said i feel like i no longer have control over this but shit i dont even think that should be what i should be worrying about, but i guess thats jus me!

So lately ive been torn between the two thoughts of:

1. Shoud I just move on(even tho i dont want to) and keep this person as a friend if thats even possible. I honestly dont even know what this persons interest level is at this point cuz i can no longer read this person... but if i choose this option it doesnt even matter.

OR

2. Jus wait it out and until the time is right with this person, but this option can set me up for a dead end situation, but has the potential to work out how i'd like it to.

At this point in time I find myself trying to go out with some female acquaintences to fill the void for but it honestly jus bores me and sometimes i feel like its a waste of my time cuz I already know what i want.

All and all... im a firm believer in everything happens for a reason so i'll jus see what happens, cuz I guess i cant control everything!