they say... "music soothes the soul"

Last night I fell in love... AGAIN!...

I fell in love, and a big reason why was because this time reminded me of the very 1st time I fell in love... although I mainly used 2 senses to capture the essence of this feeling... it was long waited and much needed... and perfect timing!

I went to a lounge last night where they have local artists... usually a few singers... possibly a rapper or two... maybe some groups... but last night... I was mesmerized...

The 1st performance was an Oakland singer by the name "Brianna" aka "Bri"... nice lil petite cutie with a nice voice... reminded me of a Kiesha Cole type of singer... the 2nd performer was also a singer but a lot more soulful, to put it in perspective she sang a Jill Scott song... and did a damn good job if I might add... they both had etremely short sets... so I was like damn they must not have many performances 2night...

At this point I was gonna go across the street to a club and do what I do... 2 of my boys from the east bay were hella like lets go over there... so when I was about 2 consider... I notice there is a band setting up... so enjoying live music like I do... I say "I wanna watch a lil bit of this to see what's up with this band"...

After about 20 minuts of setting up... this little ass stage has a DRUMMER, a KEYBOARDIST with 2 keyboards, a GUITARIST(wierd lookin dude...hahaha), a PERCUSSIONIST with the bongos and some maraca style instruments, a BASS PLAYER with an upright standing bass(one of my favorite sounds), and there's another keyboard set-up in front of everything... so I'm highly interested because the guys setting up their equipment jus give me the perception there's gonna be some HIP-HOP type of stuff goin on...

And it starts... an odd looking light skin dude with a clean ass purple and silver hoody walks on the stage as the bass player is playing what sounds like a classical music riff... and it speeds up as he plays it then the guitarist joins in and then to add to the experience I notice a SAXAPHONIST and TRUMPET PLAYER as they added their spark to this escalating music... then the guy in the purple hoody sits down and starts playing the shit out of his piano/keyboard... I mean he was beast on the keys and then the drummer joins in and this shit is rediculous... in my head I'm like "I aint goin no fuckin where til this shit is over"...

After they play this clean ass classical, hip hop infused routine the guy on the keyboard starts rapping... and the shit is right up my ally cuz its what I like to call REAL HIP-HOP!...

The performers name was KEV CHOICE(sorry didn't catch the bands name)... honestly (after careful evaluation) that was the best musical performance I've ever seen... the performer said him and his band had just come back off of tour with LAUREN HILL...

The performance continued with each song leading into the next... with solo's by some band members mixed in... they also mixed some classic west coast rap instrumentals into their set which was tight as hell...

I honestly don't think that lounge will see a much better performance than that... but then again I never would have thought I would see that one! (I LOVE HIP-HOP)

LAST NIGHT... I FELL BACK IN LOVE WITH MUSIC!!!!!

they say... "choose your battles wisely"...

*for the short brief version scroll down to the red bold type!*


okay!... so last night me and my boy SMITTY fot into what would be considered a fight but i beg to differ... lemme start from the top!

We go to this event that our homegirl is throwing... and its coo' and laid back... after it was over we lingered around a bit and then went outside and socialized for a while... eventually Me and SMITTY get in the car and he's like u gotta make any stops, im like yea LETS GO TO JACK IN THE CRACK... so we get there and the homegirl LA-LA is like im finna come in there so we like coo'... as im sayin that my order is ready so i get my shit and head to the door....

As soon as we walk out we see LA-LA and we like wus good(for any of you familiar wit the geography of this area, we were by the italian place on the corner)... no sooner we see her these two fuckin dudes start makin' comments from a short distance like:

"ay mama"

"come holla @ ya boy"

"im tranna see wus good"

...now let me clarify LA-LA is indeed our homegirl but off top these mufukkas didnt know that shit... so im already light-weight agitated cuz what if one of us was her dude or her fuckin husband for that matter... but anyway...

the dudes get close enough to have a civilized conversation(but u can forget about that shit cuz it aint gon' happen!)... and the one main dude some husky 240 lb ni66a starts talkin hella slick so in my head im like its just a matter of time before this foo' say somethin disrespectful... so he proceeds to try and pop @ LA-LA and she like im coo' can i jus talk to my homeboys and this ni66a is steady sayin hella shit...

so then this ignorant bastard pulls out some crumbled up ass money and throws it on the ground talkin bout is it a money thing or what... so me, SMITTY, & LA-LA look down and its a $10 bill... a $5 bill... and a $1 bill... simple arithmetic equals that to $16 TOTAL(whooopty-fuckin-doo)... so we look @ each other a start laughin'... and SMITTY say well let me hold somethin!...lmao...

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SO THIS IS WHERE THE SHIT ESCALATES... after being shot down the husky dude is still pushin the issue... im lookin at em muggin hella hard cuz he was jus being a fuckin asshole... so the lil lightskin foo wit em' looks @ me like r u coo' and im like yea ARE YOU!???...

so then the husky dude goes... MAAAAN YOU A HOOKER!!!... so im like you gon' be disrespectful like that... i looked @ his boy and said u need to get this ni66a and he says "thats a grown ass man"... AIIIIGHT I CAN RESPECT THAT!...

so i take off my shirt cuz im passed pissed now... cuz im takin the shit personal cuz of the fact he felt it coo to test my manhood by disrespectin her and us and think nothin is gon' happen... so LA-LA's doin the dont fight tranna hold me back thing which aint gon' work cuz i had my mind made up that it was gon' be a fight before i left that fuckin area... MIND YOU: nice-guy-SMITTY is jus relaxed as always and laughin but shit i know he got my back... so hes like jus drop it blood... i calm down like a good 8%... and we get to the car which is still on that same corner and i sit in the car facing the street with the door open and LA-LA stands in front of me with her back to me and SMITTY is leaning against the open door... and the this husky fucka says...

BITCH I SHOULD KICK YOU... and before he got it out his mouth he had rushed and kicked her... BUT... before he got his leg all back to the ground SMITTY bombs on the ni66a and its a wrap... dude is on his back(that part was funny as SHIT after the fact)... so i jump out the car and start gettin on husky dudes head hell tough... and his potna is kinda jus standin there but fuck that ur guilty by association so i start takin off on him too... so im back and forth simultaneously on these to lame ass ni66as... and then the big dude finally squares up and here comes SMITTY out of nowhere and pushed the husky dude hella hard and he falls again... so @ this point dude is squarin up dont even wanna fight so he was tranna spit on us and shit LIKE A LIL BITCH!.... so that shit is about over and this silly bastard runs up and punches the window hella hard and it didnt brake SO thats when SMITTY finally gets pissed and is like if he break this window im goin to jail cuz IMMA FUCK HIM UP!... so we kill the shit and bounce, but not before LA-LA finds the one of the dudes phone... and that my friends concludes last nights ordeal...


I HATE THE FACT THAT EVERYBODY WANNA BE HARD... WTF!!! IS THAT SHIT ABOUT... STARTIN SHIT DONT VALIDATE YO MANHOOD... IF DRINKIN MAKES U THINK UR THE FUCKIN HULK... QUIT FUCKIN DRINKIN CUZ MOST NI**AS AINT TRANNA FIGHT U... THEYD RATHER KILL U AND GET THE OVER WIT... MUFFAKAS NEED TO CHILL OUT!

they say... "all news, aint good news"

I had questions... and i felt i really needed answers!

1ST & FOREMOST... i was kinda peeved @ the fact that this person was too "BUSY" to talk for 10 minutes, shit maybe less depending on if i understand what shes sayin... i like to think im kinda foward so as a MAN when i feel somethin is important i want to talk about it face to face... *that was quickly declined upon request*... ok on with the blog!



The person im highly interested in had me wonderin what our situation was becasue we fa sho' wasnt the same as we were in the past(not even close)... but i kinda wanted to know what the deal was... soooo I ASKED!...

and long story short the answer was what i hoped it wasnt but not completely...

I wanted to know EXACTLY where we stood... and her answer was that we were friends... ok duhhhh im not a fuckin retard i know we're friends, so i told her i didnt want her to get it confused like we were friends like im friends wit my platonic play sister and homegirls, and whaddayaknow thats what she was talkin about... in my head im like what in the hell would make u think that?...(mind u i asked her to be my woman a month prior to this text talk)

so she goes on to say that were obviously not on the same page... and i agree... she says she doesnt want to be in a relationship, and shit i can feel that cuz ive felt like that for a while... even now i dont want to be in a relationship, I WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER, theres a big difference! i mean i can get a girlfriend or 2 or 3 or 4(u get the point...lol) but im not interested in being wit any other chick!...

so im like would dating be too much and she says yes... now this caught me off guard because i had no clue and im lookin at the situation like "damn she really wants to be like my homie" so... i go on to ask would it be wise to drop this whole ordeal of askin how she feels and she like "right now, Maybe" which in laymans terms means HELL YEA, BUT I DONT WANNA SAY IT!...

So after that im jus like i guess i'll keep her as a close friend... i was kinda keep dating to a minimum and not get too involved with anyone else... but what the fuck for, i feel like she's moved on so maybe i should do the samn (yes i know i said this in another blog) but now im like really thinkin thats what i need to do...

now im finna go out and get drunk and turn on the charm im so famous for!... my homegirl said i should just do me and things will fall into place so thats what imma do starting NOW!


(my bad if i sound slightly pissed... i just needed 2 vent... this blog shit is a pretty way release what on ya mind)... THANK MS. P FOR GETTIN ME INTERESTED IN THIS BLOGGIN SHIT!... i owe u a drink(s)!